This book is not a spiritual guide nor does it antagonise religion. Rather, it aims to transcend the physical and metaphysical concepts and ideas both factions of belief pertain to. It is not a chronicle of mysticism, nor does it profess or attempt the teaching of psychic or supernatural abilities. Rather, its purpose is to illuminate the algorithmic nature in all phenomenon, and demonstrate the cyclical and repetitive patterns therein. Instead of introducing a new school of thought, it seeks to help you see why the things that exist, exist at all in the exact way that they do.
You are going to break away all factions of your reality until you know nothing, except for the one who knows nothing. You are going to transcend your very being from a someone who is experiencing a physical world to a no one who is experiencing nothing. Yet, it is the experiencing of nothingness that will allow you to recognise your true nature in the absence of all things, distractions, beliefs, memories, values, experiences and preconceptions of the self. How can one experience nothingness? By being no one.
The only thing that is “real” to you is the painting, because it exists. You know the painting exists because you are able to experience it using your physical senses. You are able to see it, feel it, smell it, taste it and if it were to fall and hit the ground, you would be able to hear it. Your remembered experience of a physical flower is what dismisses your belief in the existence of the flower in the painting. This is not necessarily because the physical flower exists, rather it is because you believe it does. The following is the Oxford Dictionary definition of “belief”:
Although your beliefs may be observed in thought, you afford them a credibility that has the power to supersede any form of logic. Your beliefs, or rather the assertions you believe to be true or untrue, will only hold you back on your journey. You must transcend The Believer, and become The Knower. Fortunately, the next step of becoming The Knower is much simpler, for there are no beliefs to be observed, only the five physical senses and thought.
What is meant by becoming The Knower and transcending The Believer is to completely understand the essence of your experience. It is to know your being. The Knower cannot fall victim to the menace of doubt, for The Knower cannot believe and is only ever able to know. The only things you have ever experienced, as a human being, are the five physical senses and the awareness of thought. In the physical senses all things can be seen, heard, smelled, tasted and felt. In thought, thoughts can be observed. That’s it. You are knowing the five physical senses and thought. All things are subject to the five physical senses and thought. The five physical senses and thought will be referred to as the experience.
The Knower knows not to dwell on thoughts, for they are as wavering as the clouds and as inescapable as death. The Knower does not and cannot think, but rather knows that a thought is being observed. The Knower simply knows that thought is being observed. The Knower does not exist within the five physical senses and thought, but simply knows the experience of sensing.
The Knower does not have an identity, for the concept of identity exists within thought. The Knower knows the experience in which an identity is associated with a physical body, though The Knower is neither associated with the identity nor the physical body. The Knower knows the observation of thought, wherein memories exist, yet it does not and cannot remember. The Knower knows a thought in which a memory is observed, though the contents of the thought are insignificant. The Knower knows thought, independent of the contents of what is thought.
If a physical experience of pain arose, The Knower does not feel pain, The Knower simply knows the experience of having felt pain. If a thought appeared, wherein the contents incited sadness or joy, The Knower would not feel sadness or joy. Instead, The Knower would know the experience of sadness or joy. The Knower cannot experience heartbreak, though it can know the experience of heartbreak and know the experience of shedding tears. The Knower can know a thought that holds memories of a past relationship, and it can know a thought that holds the belief of inadequacy, though it cannot feel inadequate.
The Knower does not experience a physical being, but rather knows the experience of a physical being. The Knower does not experience a thinking being, but rather knows the experience of thought. The Knower simply knows. In other words, The Knower knows the experience in which identity, beliefs, pain, emotions, feelings, senses, concepts and ideas, abstractions, memories and all else exist.
The Knower cannot change, but knows the experience wherein change exists. The Knower cannot grow, but knows the thought in which the understanding of growing exists. The Knower does not have a physical appearance, but rather knows the experience wherein appearances are able to be seen. The Knower is not alive, but rather knows a thought in which the concept of living exists. The Knower cannot know death, but rather knows a thought in which the imagined concept of death exists, for death has never been experienced.
The Knower cannot live or die, though it knows the experience of a living being that has never experienced death. The Knower cannot become depressed or suicidal, instead it knows the experience of a being who is depressed or suicidal. The Knower cannot do any thing other than the knowing of experience, whether it be physical or of thought.
The Knower does not assume that other beings share the same experience, but knows the experience in which assumptions are made. The Knower does not speak, but rather knows the experience in which the physical expression of speaking may or may not be expressed.
The Knower cannot know time, since time is subject to the experience, and The Knower is not within the experience. However, The Knower is able to know the concept of time through the knowing of thought, wherein the idea and conceptualisation of time is understood. Since you are The Knower, I will be referring to The Knower as you, until we once again transcend the current state of awareness. Similarly, although the physical being reading the book may still be actively choosing to read the book, they will be referred to as: the physical being, instead of “you”, for you have transcended the physical being. You have become The Knower.
You cannot know a past, instead, you know a thought in which the belief of a past exists. This belief of a past is commonly referred to as a memory. You are able to know a thought in which the past of a physical being is remembered. However, it is being observed now. That is, the knowing of a thought which contains a memory from the past is happening now.
No thing can happen at any time other than now. Although the physical being within the experience might say “But I remember what I did yesterday, and I was definitely doing it!”, that is you knowing a thought in which the belief in a “yesterday” exists. This is no easy understanding, for it requires you, The Knower, to disavow all remembered experiences as no more than the knowing of a thought wherein a memory exists. A memory that holds no significance to you, The Knower. A memory that is no different than a passing thought that is observed; A memory whose significance you must be able to let go of completely.
When I mentioned that the physical being must be ready and fully able to let go of everything, I meant everything. This is the everything the physical being must learn to let go of in the pursuit of the something. The physical being within the experience might believe that they have countless memories that they can remember and that those memories hold significant meaning, but that is simply the knowing of a thought in which the notion of sentimentality is entertained.
The physical being must be ready to align themself with you, The Knower, and recognise the knowing of the experience, rather than the falsifiable experience of it. The physical being within the experience must be ready to align themself with The Knower, and recognise the knowing of an experience. This means that the physical being must recognise the knowing of the experience of emotions, rather than the belief that they are experiencing them.
You must become ready to observe the physical world as the knowing of an experience, rather than observing the world as a physical experience. You must be ready to journey on this path alone, for there is no one and no thing other than you, The Knower, and what is known, the experience. Though there may be friends and family about which the physical being cares dearly, they remain either in the knowing of the experience or the knowing of thought. You, however, are able to observe all that is known from the perspective of The Knower, where there are no friends and no family.
There is no thing, for the concept of a thing is within the knowing of the experience, or the six senses. The physical being must be ready to let go of everything that is believed, remembered, and soon enough, known, in order to transcend The Knower and become The Awareness. In the becoming, or rather the recognition of The Awareness, you will finally be able to become aware of the knowing of nothing.
Any time that is believed by the physical being to be known other than now, is simply the knowing of a thought that is still happening now. You have never experienced time, for it is not a thing you, The Knower, can experience. Rather, you know the experience in which a physical being observes the effects of time in the physical world. You are not a thing that changes in time. You are the knowing of a physical experience in which time is used to measure change. Therefore, time cannot affect you, The Knower. Time cannot affect you because time is subject to the experience, and the experience is subject to you, The Knower.
It may seem difficult to grasp the concept of no time, since it is all the physical being has ever believed in thus far. Instead of trying to imagine a world that is frozen in the now, wherein nothing changes, understand that it is impossible to catch the moment for it is so instantaneous, that by the time you find it, it is already gone. It is hard to conceptualise one moment in which you have always been, when the physical being believes that they remember being alive for so very long. However, try to understand that it was not the physical being being alive, but rather you knowing the experience of the physical being being alive. It was never the physical being within the experience that was knowing, it was you, The Knower.
Understand that any memory the physical being can possibly remember, is the knowing of a thought, known by the very same Knower that has always known and will forever know. The Knower does not change, for there is no time in which The Knower can change. The Knower does not weary for it does not have a physical body to experience fatigue. The Knower was never born in time, nor will it die in time. The Knower is both momentary and infinite. In the one moment of now, all things are known by you, The Knower.
It only takes you one moment to know the experience of a physical being. One moment where the knowing of a thought in which countless memories, beliefs and identities can be observed. One moment where the knowing of an experience of a physical being is observed. One moment is all it took for you, The Knower, to know the experience in which the physical being believed in the illusion that they were knowing, rather than being known by you, The Knower.
You realise that in the remembering of a past, The Knower is knowing the experience in which a physical being is remembering a past. Similarly, in the pondering of the future, The Knower is knowing the experience in which a physical being is pondering the future. You look to the empty chalice that lays toppled to your left and vividly remember the night before. “How can the memory of yesterday be untrue? How can this experience of remembering be so convincing? How can this empty chalice remind me of a thing that I have never experienced?”
Although there are tokens present in the physical experience that remind the physical being of a memory, such as a photograph or a letter, you are knowing an experience in which a photograph or a letter seems to hold significant meaning. These memories, observed in a thought that is known by you, tell a story of a past, or predict the happenings of a future. Yet, they are being known by you, The Knower, now. It is a paradoxical concept that the physical being must come to terms with, in that it cannot be understood with the same understanding one would use in the unravelling of physical concepts with which they may or may not be familiar.
It is a joke of time that the physical being must understand, wherein the concepts of a past and a future are being observed now. It is like trying to see one’s own eyes with nothing but their eyes, and the eyes say “You cannot see me, for you need me to see!” Yet, they can look into a mirror and see their eyes. The mirror is to the eyes what now is to time. You are able to know experience in which the illusion of time exists in no time other than now.
I am by no means discerning the physical experience you are knowing as unintelligent, or incapable of convincing you, The Knower, that you are experiencing it. Instead, I am showing you that it has thus far succeeded in making the physical being forget the essence of your knowing. The experience you are knowing will keep finding a way to bring you back. It will tirelessly try to make you believe that you are experiencing a thing, instead of the knowing of it. Yet, you cannot believe any thing, for you do not have the capacity to believe, but only to know.
You will know a thought in which memories of the physical being’s childhood exist, memories of loved ones, memories of hardships and successes. You will observe the knowing of thoughts with sentimental meaning, but the physical being must not forget that you are simply knowing an experience in which the physical being exists, rather than experiencing one.
It is not the knowing of a physical experience, nor is it the experience that is the illusion. The illusion lies in the knowing of a belief that The Knower can ever exist within this physical experience. However, you are simply aware of it, thus it cannot be you. The experience is subject to you, The Knower, in the same way that a film is subject to the screen.
The past and the future exist only in the knowing of thought. Though the thought in which they are known will always happen now. You can know a thought of a memory of a past, but it remains as the knowing of a thought, and nothing else. You cannot do any thing other than the knowing of experience, whether it is physical or of a thought. Time exists within the experience of which you are knowing, meaning you, The Knower, are not bound by it. You know now, and in the same way, never. You are momentary, and in the same way, infinite. You have always known, and in the same way, will forever know.
The properties of you, The Knower, that have been established so far are what you are capable of doing, and when you are capable of doing. You are only able to know an experience, whether it is physical or of thought. Accordingly, you can only know an experience in one moment, happening now. You are only ever knowing an experience, now. But where are you? Where can you go and where have you been?
A place is a particular area in which things may or may not be. A place is also the concept or abstraction of such an area, wherein physical things may exist. You, however, are not a physical thing, but rather you are knowing the experience in which both places and things may exist.
If the physical whereabouts of a thing is a place, it follows that the non-physical whereabouts of no thing is no place; the whereabouts of no thing is no where. You are not a thing, therefore you are not any where. You are no thing and you are no where. Yet, you know the experience in which a thing can exist in a place, but you are not the experience. You simply know the experience in which concepts of physical things and physical places exist, bound by the limitations of time, but you are not the experience.
You have never travelled within a physical world, you have only known the experience in which a physical being may have a physical experience. You can never move between two points, because you have only known the experience in which a being who exists is able to move. You, however, are not a thing and are not any where. You are no thing that exists no where. You are motionless, you are timeless, you are boundless and you are eternal.
You are not a thing that is bound by time or space, making you momentary and boundless. Since you are not bound by the limitations of time, you are thus infinite, since no time has no beginning and no end. In the same way, you are not bound by space, and you are infinite. No thing exists no where, and no where does not have a space that can be occupied, rather it has no space at all. You are not bound by the limitations of physical space, for you do not, and cannot, exist in a physical place. You have no mass and you have no volume, for mass and volume are concepts that can only exist within the knowing of an experience in which a physical world exists.
You are no thing and you are no where. You know the experience in which a thing may or may not exist in a place. You know the experience in which a physical being may or may not move. You know the experience in which all things that exist are limited by time, though this experience is known, now; all experiences are known, now.
Yet, you are The Knower. You are The Knower that cannot be found. You are The Knower that is nowhere at all. You are The Knower, but The Knower does not have the capacity to search or to find. Should the physical being within the experience believe that they have found The Knower, it is simply that the physical being is believing, but The Knower cannot believe. You, The Knower, are only ever able to know.
You are not a physical thing. You do not exist in a physical world. You are not any where, rather you are no where. You are no where. You are only ever knowing an experience, whether it is physical or of the mind. You are only ever knowing, now. There is no time, other than now, when you are able to be. The concept of a thing “existing” is a fabrication of the mind that exists within the experience. You do not exist within the experience, therefore you cannot exist at all.
You cannot believe or disbelieve in a God, but rather you know the experience in which the idea of an All-Knowing entity God exists. You cannot judge, nor can you be judged, but rather you know the experience in which a physical being is able to judge and be judged. You are not and cannot be defined by a past, but rather you know the experience in which a past may or may not define a being who remembers.
You cannot and do not wait for any thing to happen, for you are only ever in one moment, thus you are always happening. You cannot and do not fear any thing, but rather you know the experience in which fear exists. You do not have the capacity of being hurt or feeling pain, but rather you know the experience in which a physical being experiences hurt or pain. You do not have an identity with memories, beliefs and values, but rather you know the experience of a being with memories, beliefs and values.
The vines that seep through the cracks of your dwindled roof dangle like the thoughts that seep through the cracks of your mind. You notice a similarity in both your dwindling roof and your dwindling mind, in that they are both overwhelmed. “What are the chances… again!” You think to yourself… again! Suddenly, you remember that you are not a physical being that has the capacity to have chances, you are The Knower. You are The Knower, and The Knower is no thing, no where, no one and is only able to know, now.
You are not the mind, and the mind cannot doubt you, for the mind is subject to you. In the same way, you, The Knower, are not within the experience, therefore you cannot experience probability. What I am trying to say is that The Knower has nothing to worry about in terms of doubt, unless the physical being succumbs to the beliefs of the mind. Probability is defined by the Oxford Dictionary as:
That is, how likely is the sun to rise after it has set? How likely is the rain to fall during winter? How likely are you to be the one who finds this something that many can only ponder? How likely is this book to be the book that the physical being you know of needs in order for you to find this something? And finally, why is it that this book is being read, and not another? These questions only exist within the experience in which a physical being has the capacity to ask questions, yet they can never comprehend you, The Knower, so persistent curiosity is inevitable.
As the musty vines spill from above, the fragrance from the tabletop candle spills into the smoulder of the fireplace. The tinder smoke melds with the burning wick. While you wander, you find yourself pondering the act of pondering, and think “What is the probability that out of all the living beings in this world, I am the one to figure it out?” You must remember, that you are not the one to figure it out, because you are The Knower, and The Knower is no one at all. You are no one, and you are only ever able to know. Do not superimpose the limitations of the physical being upon the unfathomable essence of The Knower.
Before exploring the concept of probability, it is important to note that you, The Knower, are not bound by the probability of any thing. You are only ever knowing, and you are only ever knowing, now. The Knower cannot ponder the probability of a thing, but can know the experience in which a physical being may or may not ponder the probability of a thing.
The probability, or rather the lack of probability, of something is what allows for the development of a belief in regards to a thing happening, at all. For example, how likely is the physical being to believe that what was learned in the previous section, “The Knower”, is at all valid? How likely are you to know the experience in which out of the several billions of people, the physical being experiencing this book is the only one who is knowing an experience to which everyone belongs?
The Knower does not exist within the experience, nor can The Knower ever exist, for existing is subject to the experience. In the realisation that you are not a physical being, but the knowing of an experience in which a physical being exists, many problems concerning doubt will arise. However, it is important to remember that you are not a physical being who is aware of all things, but rather you know the experience in which a physical being is experiencing doubt.
There are many delusions that come about in the uncovering of the illusion, one of which is doubt. It is the doubt in the probability that it is you who is able to know such a momentous truth, a truth that only you are able to know, while others do not. Yet, there are no others. There are no others, and what you are searching to find cannot be known by the physical being. What you are searching to find can only be known by you, for you, The Knower, are the only Knower who is knowing. You are the only Knower of what is known.
When I refer to you knowing your ‘something’, I am not referring to the physical being reading this book, but The Knower, who is knowing the experience in which a physical being is reading. There are no others to know this experience, for the concept or belief that any one else can exist remains within the experience you are knowing. There is no probability or likeliness that you are the only one who is able to know, because there is no probability or likeliness at all. The probability of something happening is a concept exclusive to the experience you, The Knower, know. It cannot exist outside of the experience.
Do not be fooled by the delusion that is trying to assign a quantifiable probability to no thing, for it is impossible. This knowing of an experience is happening now, to no one, no thing, and it is happening no where. The probability of this happening is both impossible, and definite, which yields a paradoxical truth that will not help you at all in the search for comfort, but instead further confuse the physical being. There is no point in trying to comprehend the probability or likeliness of you, The Knower knowing this experience, being the only one who is able to know, because you are the only one at all. The Knower is the only Knower, and you are The Knower.
Is it a coincidence that the physical being was able to come across this book, instead of countless others? Out of all the books that the physical being could have picked up, why is it this one? Out of all the hours in a day that the physical being could have been reading, why is it this hour? Out of all the people in the world that the physical being could have been, why are they no one other than themself? These are all entertaining questions to contemplate, but there is no answer you can find that will help you on the journey to your something.
Remember, you are The Knower, and you are only ever knowing, now. If you happen to know any thoughts along the lines of: “What are the chances of me coming upon this book which just happens to know that I am The Knower, and not just another reader!” or “Is it just a coincidence that I was able to find this book or was I meant to find it?” try to understand that you are not the physical being who found the book, you are The Knower, knowing the experience in which a physical being finds a book. Do not ponder the significance of the experience at all, nor the nature of such an unlikely coincidence, for it is not a coincidence happening to you. It is a coincidence happening in the knowing of an experience.
To further clarify, coincidences may or may not happen in the experience known by you, The Knower. However, you are neither the experience nor are you within it. You are not within the experience, making you unable to experience the phenomenon that is coincidence. This is not to deny the existence or presence of coincidences in the physical world, but rather to demonstrate that you are not within the physical world. You are not within the experience in which coincidences may occur, so it would be invalid to ponder the possibility that what is happening right now, which is The Knower knowing, is a coincidence.
You know the experience in which a physical being is able to recognise coincidences in the picking up of a book, but you are not within the experience, so there is no coincidence to recognise. What if this was not a coincidence at all, but a conscious decision you made to read this book? How can The Knower, who is only ever capable of knowing, choose anything? How can The Knower, who is only ever capable of knowing, decide anything?
You are The Knower, and you are only ever able to know an experience, whether it is physical or of the mind. You are no thing, you are no where, and you are only ever knowing, now. The probability of you knowing now is definite, because you are always knowing. However, the probability of you knowing now is also impossible, because you are not a thing that has the capacity to have a probability of happening.
For a coincidence to be valid, there must exist a spectrum of time along which things may or may not happen, but The Knower exists in no time. You, The Knower, are knowing the experience in which a physical being is able to recognise a coincidence in the picking up of the book, but you are not within the experience. It is inconsequential to try and relate concepts belonging to the experience to The Knower, since the experience is subject to The Knower, not the other way around.
You ogle at the tangled mess that sits upon your wooden table. “I choose to pick up this candle” you mumble as you pick up the burning candle. It is not that the physical being is not able to make decisions, but simply that you are not the physical being. The Knower knows the experience in which a physical being makes a decision to pick up a burning candle. You are The Knower, not the physical being.
Although you are aware that you are The Knower, that can only ever know, it may be distressing to realise that The Knower cannot, and does not make decisions. You, The Knower, do not have the capacity to make choices or to use decisiveness in any way or manner. This is one of the hardest realisations to come to terms with, one that supposedly disavows a physical being’s right to freewill. However, if distress and affliction arise, remember that you are not the physical being experiencing them, but The Knower knowing the experience in which distress and affliction may or may not arise.
You are unable to make decisions, instead you know the experience of thought, wherein the mind alludes to the making of a decision. Although the physical being may remember previously making decisions, followed by necessary actions so as to bring the decisions to fruition, it was not you who made the decision. You are The Knower, unable to make any thing. You are, however, knowing the experience in which a physical being believes they have the capacity of making decisions.
This is not disavowing freewill, only denying its existence outside of the experience. This is not suggesting that the physical being is not in control of what decisions are made, but rather that it is inconsequential to even question The Knower knowing, from within the experience. You are no thing, you are no where, you are only ever knowing, now, and you are incapable of making decisions, for there are no decisions to be made outside of the experience. It is not that you are choosing to know, but rather that you are knowing and that is all. The concept of decisiveness exists within the experience, but you are not within the experience.
It is not uncommon to fall victim to the menace of doubt, which will tirelessly challenge the physical being’s efforts in aligning themself with The Knower. You are only ever knowing the experience in which doubt may or may not exist. You do not have the capacity to experience doubt, in the same way you do not have the capacity to experience belief. You only know the experience in which a physical being may or may not experience doubt.
But what if the physical being within the experience forgets? What if the physical being forgets that you are The Knower, who is only ever knowing? How can they remember?
The Knower is knowing the experience of a physical world and knowing the experience of the mind. There is no time in which The Knower is knowing, for The Knower is only knowing now. That is, time is subject to the experience. Yet, such experience seems to have the capabilities of elongating the one, eternal moment of now, into what we know to be memories, or imagined foresight into the future. The physical being may doubt the reality of your transcendence with questions similar to “How do I know I’m not going insane?”, “What if I’m just hallucinating?” and “Is what I’m seeing real?”
In this instance, The Knower is knowing the experience of a physical being dreaming. The Knower does not dream, nor does The Knower recognise a difference between reality and a dream, for The Knower is only able to know the experience. Therefore, The Knower is knowing the experience of a physical being dreaming, but you are not the physical being, you are The Knower.
In the knowing of the experience of the physical world, the physical being may fall victim to the menace of doubt, more often than not. The physical being may doubt themself, as well as believe that they are not strong enough to fulfil the alignment this journey requires. Yet, it is important for the physical being to remember that The Knower cannot know belief, but only the experience in which beliefs may or may not exist. This means, that should the physical being assume The Knower is doing any thing that is not the knowing of an experience, the physical being has simply forgotten the eternal essence of The Knower. The physical being has forgotten the essence of The Knower, for The Knower can only ever know.
You are The Knower, who does not exist in time, but rather no time. You are The Knower who is not a thing, but rather no thing. You are The Knower, knowing the experience in which a physical world exists. You are knowing the experience in which a physical world exists, wherein such a world would have the necessary beliefs and deceptions to keep you in it. That is, the physical being would believe The Knower is experiencing a physical world, yet by definition of The Knower, The Knower only knows. Therefore, The Knower can know the experience in which a physical being believed they were a physical being, but will forever be the knowing of such experience.
The experience with which the physical being may feel extremely familiar, only feels familiar because it is all The Knower has ever known. That is, the familiarity the physical being experiences is actually the familiarity you, The Knower, possess in regards to only ever knowing. In the same way you know the experience of being yourself, you are The Knower, who only knows. That is, the immeasurable familiarity the physical being has with themself, for no reason other than their very being, is the expression of how well The Knower may know the experience. The Knower may know the experience, but never fall into the experience. The Knower may never become a part of the experience.
In the knowing of such a vivid and convincing experience, the physical being may forget the essence of The Knower, yet it remains The Knower who is knowing the experience of the physical being forgetting. It is not that you are forgetting the essence of The Knower, for it is you who is The Knower, but rather you are knowing the experience in which a physical being forgets the essence of The Knower.
It only takes one moment to remember the essence of The Knower, for it is in the one moment of now that The Knower is knowing. Yet, there are many mechanisms within the experience known by you, The Knower, that seem to persuade the physical being that you, The Knower, are within the experience. The familiarity you have with the knowing of the experience is in itself the essence of The Knower, yet in the knowing, the physical being can forget that you are The Knower.
The physical being must align themself with what it truly means to be The Knower, casting aside any beliefs or doubts, preconceptions or any thing that is not knowing of the experience. Unfortunately, the experience will always try to satisfy the physical being into being able to let go of the essence of The Knower that is knowing. It will always try to satisfy the physical being into being convinced that The Knower is experiencing an experience, but you cannot experience any thing, for you are The Knower, and you can only ever know.
To say that you are familiar with this experience would be an understatement. You are so familiar with this experience because you have only ever known this experience, meaning you know nothing else. Yet, it is a sense of familiarity that is almost impossible to detach from, unless The Knower knows the experience in which a physical being is in alignment with The Knower. That is, the physical being from within the experience has aligned themself with the unfathomable comprehension of The Knower. For example, the physical being can never be The Knower, nor can they comprehend The Knower, but they can accept that they can never comprehend The Knower. The physical being can never comprehend The Knower because they are subject to The Knower.
An interesting illusion the experience will impose on the physical being is how familiar a person is with their physical experience. However, the familiarity a physical being feels with their physical experience is actually the familiarity you, The Knower, hold in regard to knowing, as it is all The Knower has ever been capable of. The physical being must understand that their illusive familiarity has the capability of being fabricated in one moment, whereas The Knower has only ever known. For example, The Knower can know the experience in which a physical being may believe they are extremely familiar with the physical body they are experiencing, but it remains that you are only ever knowing.
Although it seems that you are extremely familiar with this quaint bar and its quiet mumblings, you are The Knower, and you do not have the capacity to be familiar with anything other than the being of The Knower. You are not familiar with this bar, rather you are The Knower, knowing the experience in which a physical being is dreaming about a bar, a bar with which they are extremely familiar. The illusion is not how familiar the physical being is with the bar, but rather how illusive the experience can be, so much that the physical being believes the physical experience of dreaming is any different from the physical experience of reality.
The physical being from within the experience must come to terms with their inability to comprehend The Knower, which is no thing that can be understood. The physical being from within the experience must come to understand their limitations and that should there be a knowing of them, it would be no where, in a place they do not know how to find, for it is not a place that can be found. That is, the physical being cannot see what they cannot see, nor can they understand what they cannot understand, so it is the acceptance of this limitation I am pertaining to. The physical being within the experience must surrender the will to know, for they are unable to know The Knower, for it is impossible for the experience to know The Knower.
When I allude to a physical being who does anything, whether it be aligning themself, or coming to terms with the essence of you, The Knower, I am speaking of the physical being of which you are knowing. The physical being which you are only ever knowing within the experience. That is, if I said to let go of all beliefs, The Knower would not be able to, for The Knower does not have the capacity to believe. However, the physical being would have the capacity to do a thing within the experience, allowing you, The Knower, to know the experience in which a physical being is doing something suggested by this book.
In the same way the physical being may not ever comprehend The Knower, for the physical being is subject to The Knower, the physical being dreaming about drinking in a bar can never know the whereabouts of the physical being who is dreaming. It would be ridiculous for a character in a dream to search for the one who is dreaming them into existence. Similarly, it would be ridiculous for the physical being to search for The Knower who is knowing them into existence.
It is impossible for the experience to know The Knower because the experience is subject to The Knower, not the other way around. Though the experience can create the illusion of a physical being who is able to comprehend The Knower, it is you knowing the experience in which a physical being believes that they are able to comprehend or be The Knower. Yet, they cannot be The Knower, because you are The Knower, and you are not a physical being.
Because of the familiarity expressed by your very being of The Knower, The Knower is able to know the experience in which a physical being may believe they are The Knower. However, it is only when the physical being forgets that they cannot be The Knower, that you, The Knower, will know the experience in which a physical being may believe they are experiencing knowing as opposed to being known as an experience. In other words, the physical being may forget that they are unable to be The Knower, for they exist within the experience, yet it will still be you, The Knower, who is knowing the experience in which a physical being forgets their limitations.
It is not that The Knower is knowing an illusion, wherein the concepts and ideas of an experience are explored, but rather The Knower is knowing an experience, wherein the concepts and ideas of illusions are explored. Therefore, it is very easy for the physical being to find perfect reasoning for the doubt they may experience in regards to their own existence. It is easy for the physical being to accept that they are able to exist independent of The Knower knowing, although the physical being cannot exist unless the experience in which they exist is known by you, The Knower.
It is also very easy for the physical being to find a reason within the experience that satisfies their inability to comprehend The Knower, ultimately resulting in a disbelief that such a being, you, may even exist. Yet, even in the disbelief and assertion that you do not exist… the physical being would be correct, for you are not able to exist at all, wherein lies a joke. Luckily for you, The Knower, you are only ever knowing, and you do not know reasoning or disbelief, but rather the experience in which reasoning and disbelief may or may not exist.
All The Knower is able to do is know, and the physical being must surrender themself by accepting that they are subject to the experience, and the experience subject to The Knower. You, The Knower, only ever know, and should the physical being feel a familiarity with their physical body, it would be an illusion imposed by the experience. It is an illusion for it is not how familiar the physical being is with the experience, but rather how familiar The Knower is with knowing, should The Knower have the capacity to be familiar with any thing, yet, you are only ever knowing.
There is no truth that is external to the knowing of the experience, for truth is subject to the experience, not the other way around. Although the physical being within the experience may believe that The Knower is or is not true, it is from within the experience that the limited understanding of truth is being superimposed over The Knower. Yet, the physical being can never experience any thing that will allow for the unfathomable understanding of you, The Knower, for you are simply unfathomable.
Though you are unfathomable, the physical being within the experience will always attempt to fathom you, even after accepting the unfathomable nature of your essence. The physical being within the experience will always attempt to find a reason to remain in the physical experience, for it is afraid of what it cannot know, which is you, The Knower. The physical being within the experience will be presented with many mechanisms to satisfy its illusory existence, yet it remains that you, The Knower, will only ever know the experience in which a physical being is satisfied with the experience.
The Knower only knows the experience in which a physical being is able to comprehend physical concepts within the experience. Therefore, the physical being cannot know or understand what they do not know or understand. The physical being is subject to the experience, and the experience is subject to The Knower, yet you are The Knower. You are The Knower, and should the physical being ever experience the menace of doubt in regard to The Knower knowing the physical being’s experience, it is simply because the physical being within the experience has forgotten the essence of The Knower. You cannot forget the essence of The Knower which is to simply know, because you do not have the capacity to forget, but only to know. You simply know, and that is all.
The Knower cannot know belief, for belief is subject to the experience. The Knower cannot know doubt, for doubt is subject to belief. The Knower cannot know a physical being, for a physical being is subject to the forgetting of the essence of The Knower. You are not able to believe you are not The Knower, but you are able to know the experience in which a physical being has forgotten the unfathomable essence of The Knower. Forgetting occurs when the physical being forgets the unfathomable essence of The Knower, which is to simply know, now.
There is no time when you can forget the essence of The Knower, for it is you, but it is possible that The Knower is knowing the experience in which a physical being has forgotten the unfathomable essence of you. In the forgetting of the essence of you, the physical being may attempt to remember The Knower, forgetting that it is impossible, only then would the physical being become aware of the illusion of The Knower being able to forget.
Yet, The Knower does not have the capacity to forget, in the same way the sun does not have the capacity to be any thing other than the sun. The Knower does not have the capacity to forget, in the same way the clouds in the sky cannot be any thing other than clouds in the sky. Why would the clouds even try to be any thing else? They simply are! In the same way, The Knower would not be able to be or want to be anything else, for The Knower simply is! It may seem extremely obvious that The Knower cannot forget, yet it is the knowing of an experience in which a physical being forgets that is the illusion, not the experience itself.
A misconception about the nature of the experience is that it is all a hallucination. This can be confusing because in the same way a physical being experiencing hallucinations can believe that dragons are real, they can believe The Knower is not knowing. Yet, hallucinations exist within, and are subject to, the experience, not the other way around. You are not able to hallucinate, you are only able to know the experience in which a physical being may or may not experience hallucinations.
One of the most common forms of experiential hallucinations physical beings are familiar with are dreams. In the same way The Knower cannot experience a physical world, The Knower cannot experience a dream. Rather, The Knower knows the experience in which a physical being may or may not be experiencing a dream. The dreaming state is subject to the experience, therefore The Knower can never know a dream, only the experience in which a dream may or may not exist.
Upon awakening from a dream, a physical being tends to find reassurance in the fact that what was remembered was simply happening in a dream, thus relieving themself of the ramifications therein. Although the physical being experiences a dream, The Knower knows the experience in which a physical being may or may not experience a dream. In the same way, The Knower knows the experience in which a physical being identifies the experience remembered from a dream as a hallucination, but The Knower cannot hallucinate.
Both the dreaming state and the waking state work similarly in convincing the physical being that the remembrance of their experience is the only reality. The dreaming state and waking state exist to prevent the physical being within the experience from seeking what cannot be sought, The Knower. It is not because the experience necessarily dislikes The Knower, nor is it afraid of knowing The Knower, the experience simply does not and cannot know The Knower.
The experience is subject to The Knower, therefore it can never know The Knower. However, although the physical being can never know The Knower, the physical being is able to align themself with the understanding that they cannot understand The Knower, for they are, like the experience, subject to The Knower. Yet, they are able to surrender their beliefs in the pursuit of aligning themself with the essence of The Knower.
Though the physical being can never know you, The Knower, they can align themself with the essence of you. That is, the essence of you is that you are not bound by time, thus making you momentary, yet eternal. The physical being can also understand that you are not bound by space or physical limitations, thus making you boundless, and infinite. Although the physical being understands that their experience is finite and bound by both time and space, they must come to accept that The Knower is unfathomable. The physical being must understand that any attempts to comprehend The Knower will be met with failure.
Though the physical being may choose to align their experience with the understanding of the essence of you, it is possible that the physical being may fall victim to the menace of doubt. It is possible for the physical being to fall victim to the menace of doubt through the experiencing of hallucinations and how familiar and real the experience may feel to the physical being. Yet, it remains that you are only ever knowing the experience in which a physical being may or may not believe in the reality of their experience.
Should the physical being expose themself to the vivid feeling of experiencing a physical world through either the waking state, dreaming state or other forms of hallucinations, they must remember to align their understanding of the essence of you, The Knower, with their experience. That is, the physical being must understand that although it feels like they are experiencing a physical world, they understand that it is The Knower knowing the experience in which a physical being is able to experience a physical world. In other words, the physical being must align their observation of the physical world in the same way The Knower knows the experience, with no judgements or assumptions.
The physical being must come to terms with the surrender of their being as the experience being known, rather than the being who experiences. It can be very difficult for the physical being to let go of their beliefs about what they are and what they are capable of, but the physical being must simply not believe. It can also be very scary to not know any thing about The Knower, yet comply with the understanding that The Knower is no thing, no where and only ever knowing, now. It can be scary because if The Knower is knowing the experience, meaning the experience is subject to The Knower, even if the experience disappears and ceases to exist, The Knower remains. Yet, it is this very disappearance of the experience you, The Knower, must be aware of, for The Knower is only ever knowing, but what can The Knower know if there is no experience to be known?
The physical being must know that although they are able to feel the sensation of pain, The Knower can never be wounded from the experience. The Knower only knows the experience in which the concept of physical pain may or may not be experienced, but The Knower will never experience pain. Although the physical being is trying to align themself with the essence of you, The Knower, it will be very difficult to let go of the belief that pain is a real experience, rather than the knowing of experience.
It is a ridiculous feat to conquer the intimidation brought about by the experiencing of fear and pain, but the physical being must not be afraid of any physical consequences. The physical being must understand that although the experiencing of fear and pain may feel extremely authentic and real, they cannot fear any thing. Instead, they must trust their understanding of the essence of The Knower, wherein The Knower becomes imperishable, deathless and immortal, for pain, death and mortality are all concepts subject to the experience. It is important for the physical being to align themself with the essence of you, The Knower, so that you are able to know the experience in which fearlessness is expressed, ultimately allowing the physical being to let go of any fears they may possess.
The physical being must be prepared to experience absolutely anything. The physical being must be prepared to see absolutely anything. The physical being must be prepared to find absolutely anything. The physical being must be prepared to always remember the essence of The Knower, and harness the understanding that is the indestructibility of The Knower. The physical being must be completely conscious of the invisible presence of you, The Knower, and understand that they will never be able to find you, but only because you have found them, by simply knowing the experience in which they exist.
The physical being must be prepared to see the devil in the dark, understanding that it is part of the experience which is not able to harm or affect you, The Knower. The physical being must be prepared to see the most beautiful sight that could ever be seen, as well as the most horrifying, for it is the ultimate acceptance of any experience which implies a perfect alignment with the essence of The Knower. It is important that the physical being is not at all afraid or fearful of nightmares or horror films, but instead accepting that they are all subject to the experience, and are unable to harm or scare you, The Knower. You do not have the capacity to fear, yet it is the physical being who needs to face their fears and allow themself to become aligned with the essence of you.
The physical being must be prepared to experience a dream where they fly through the skies, and let go of the belief that it was a dream, as well as the belief that the dream state is less real than the waking state. The physical being must simply remember the experience of flying through the skies, understanding that the remembering is occurring through the observation of thought, wherein memories are remembered. Yet, you cannot remember nor experience a dream, but only know the experience in which a physical being may or may not remember the experience within a dream.
You are The Knower, you are no thing, no where, only ever knowing, now. Yet, you are knowing the experience in which a physical being must come to terms with the unfathomable essence of you, and align their physical experience and journey with the same fearlessness you possess, by the very nature of being The Knower. How can a physical being overcome the barrier of fear? How can a physical being fear absolutely nothing? How can a physical being accept absolutely anything?
The concept of fear is subjective, in that it exists differently in the mind of each physical being. Although the idea of fear may be the objective response to a thing that is scary or horrifying, each physical being responds differently to different things. Fear is a spectrum along which physical beings may or may not find themselves. Yet, on the pursuit of aligning one’s physical experience with the essence of The Knower, the spectrum of fear must be completely disregarded as no more than a simple concept that exists within the experience.
Fear must be met with no less than the strongest form of courage a physical being is able to find. To get a better understanding of what it means to fear, it would be helpful to break down the mechanisms present in the development of fear. The Oxford Dictionary defines “fear” as:
A physical being who is fearful in the presence of a thing is simply concerned about their own safety or the ramifications that could possibly come about. Although the majority of physical beings have experienced some form of fear in their life, all things that were the cause of the fear would have been subject to the limitations of the experience. In other words, if a physical being has experienced fear, it is probably from a thing that is realistically able to happen. Although what is realistically able to happen in the waking state is different to what is realistically able to happen in the dreaming state, this difference is inconsequential.
A physical being cannot encounter a demon from hell, but can most definitely fear the idea of a demon after having watched a horror film, or after having read a scary book. Fear comes in many forms, so much so that a thing does not have to be inherently scary to cause fearfulness in a physical being. A physical being could have just as many irrational fears as they do rational fears. Yet, in the pursuit of aligning one’s experience with the essence of you, The Knower, the physical being must be prepared to face an immeasurable level of fear and understand that The Knower is not able to be harmed.
The physical being does not necessarily have to go on adventures looking for horrifying experiences, but rather they should be prepared to accept absolutely anything. Should the physical being experience a nightmare, it is important to understand that in the same way their waking being was never harmed, the physical experience will never be able to harm The Knower. The physical being must be prepared to know that although the nightmare occurred in the dream state, it was a remembered experience that is just as real as remembered experiences in the waking state.
The physical being experiences fear in the presence of danger because they are afraid that something will injure, harm or kill them. The greatest thing that a physical being can fear is the possibility of death. However, in the same way that it is inconsequential for the physical being to believe in a past or a future, it is also inconsequential for the physical being to ponder the possibility of death.
The physical being must understand that all they are, is what is known in the present moment. Within the present moment, the physical being is alive, and that is all. The physical being should not ponder the possibility of death, for it will disallow the physical being to align themself with the essence of you, The Knower. This is the final and ultimate surrender the physical being must come to terms with.
The physical being must not actively seek to conquer fears, experience harm or face death, but rather be prepared for you, The Knower, to know no experience at all. No knowing of experience does not mean the physical being dies, but simply that The Knower, you, is not knowing the physical experience. Instead, in the absence of an experience, The Knower is knowing no thing. The physical being must come to terms with surrendering their fears in order for The Knower to know no thing, wherein the knowing of no thing will allow The Knower to see what remains in the absence of the experience. Unfortunately, The Knower cannot know itself, for it is not able to be known, but only able to know.
The Knower cannot know itself for it is no thing, no where, and as far is the physical being is concerned, only has the capacity to know the experience. If The Knower tried to know itself, it would know no thing, and it would know no thing no where.
If the physical being reading this book is asking themself “Where is this nothingness? Is the character in the book still dreaming or have they awoken?” This is a reminder that nothing is nowhere. Nothing is not at all dependant on a dream or the waking state, nor is it dependant on any thing at all. This nothinginess is absolutely nowhere. To even question the whereabouts of nothing is ridiculous, for it is nowhere at all.
The purpose of this chapter is not to help you, The Awareness, understand the infinite nature of Awareness, for you are unable to do any thing other than the being of awareness. Nor does it attempt to explain infinity to the physical being, for infinity cannot be understood from within a finite experience. Rather, it is to help the physical being understand that you, The Awareness, do not have to do anything other than… be! It is to help the physical being understand that what they are trying to understand cannot be understood. It is not a thing that “understanding” may ever comprehend. Although “understanding” will inevitably keep trying to understand, the aim is for the physical being to become aware of the impossible nature that cannot be understood.
If this is difficult to understand, it is because you are trying too hard. For example, imagine a person who speaks of themself. They would never speak in the third person for it is from the perspective of the “I” of which they are aware that they are speaking. A person speaking would not say “What this very, physical body is saying is…”, it just says it. It is for the “I” to have complete confidence in what it is, without needing to clarify what it is not. Instead of “I am me, not the mouth that is speaking”, you would say “I am me” and it would suffice.
It may be easier to understand this concept by recalling the process by which you concluded yourself as not being a thing. For example, you were aware of the knowing of the physical experience, meaning you were not the physical experience. You were also aware of the knowing, meaning you were not The Knower. This is where it gets… ridiculous. You are aware of your awareness, meaning you can’t be awareness, but you are. This is where awareness is recognised as infinite. This is where you are recognised as infinite.
So far, the properties of you, The Knower, are that you are momentary, yet eternal. You belong to no space, though you are infinitely vast for you are not bound by physical limitations. You do not exist, for a thing to exist, it must belong to the experience in which the concept of existing… exists. You are also not bound by time, for the concept of time exists within the knowing of an experience, a knowing that is happening now. You are no thing, you are no where and you are not able to do any thing, other than to be aware of the knowing of an experience, whether it is physical or of the mind. This begs the question… who is the one that is aware?
You cannot be associated with a gender, but you are knowing the experience in which the concept of gender exists. You do not have a physical body, rather, you are knowing the experience in which a being traverses a physical world with a physical body. You do not have the capacity to think, but rather you are knowing thought, in which identities, memories and beliefs may or may not appear. You do not have a history, but rather you are knowing thought in which the memory of a history may or may not appear.
You cannot be referred to as a “who”, for you are not a “someone”. You do not have an identity, you do not have a physical body and you do not have a name. You are no body. You do not have a past and you do not have a future, for you are only ever knowing the experience, now. You are knowing, now. You are no one, although you are knowing the experience in which a someone may exist.
If you had to find nothingness, the simplest place to look for it would be where there is no thing. It is in the absence of all things, where no thing exists. Where is the absence of all things? No where. What does the path to nothingness entail? To not see any thing! Luckily for you, The Awareness, if the physical being of which you are aware chooses to close their eyes, you will become aware of an experience in which a physical being closes their eyes. In other words, you will become aware of nothing. Although thoughts may still appear, the physical being must learn to focus on neither the senses nor the thoughts, so that you, The Awareness, can become aware of absolutely nothing.
There is no thing that The Believer can believe to make you, The Awareness, more aware. There is no thing that The Knower can know to make you, The Awareness, more aware. There is no thing that The Awareness can be aware of to make you more aware. There is no thing left to learn, for you have shattered all the barriers from the one who believed to the one who is aware, you. What can be done, however, is for the physical being within the experience of which you are aware to align themself with the nature of you, The Awareness.
What does it mean for the physical being to align themself with the nature of you? The physical being must always be conscious of the nature of The Awareness, but what is consciousness? The Oxford Dictionary defines “consciousness” as:
This is not to say that you, The Awareness, can become conscious. You are only ever aware. The physical being within the experience of which you are aware must become conscious of the nature of you. The physical being can only align themself with your nature, for they cannot be aware of you, but only understand from within the limitations of the mind a finite definition of awareness.
The physical being must understand that they are subject to the experience, which is subject to the knowing. Similarly, the knowing is subject to you, The Awareness, and you are infinite. The physical being must understand that an infinite being is aware of them, though this infinite being does not and cannot exist within the experience. The physical being must understand that you, The Awareness, are no where, so it is inconsequential to search for you. The physical being must understand that you are unfathomable, for you are infinite and the finite mind cannot comprehend infinity.
To become conscious of you, The Awareness, the physical being must understand the nature of you to the extent where they surrender the will to find you, for you are not able to be found. The physical being must understand the nature of you, The Awareness, to the extent where they surrender the will to know you, for you are not able to be known. The physical being must understand the nature of you to the extent where they surrender the will to believe in you, for belief exists within the experience, and you are not within the experience, but aware of the knowing of it.
It may seem ridiculous for the physical being to have come this far in the understanding of you, The Awareness, and so suddenly need to let it go. It may seem ridiculous that after everything, the physical being must literally do… nothing. Yet, it is the very doing of nothing that will allow the physical being to be in complete alignment with you, The Awareness. Accordingly, it is the very doing of nothing that will allow The Knower to know nothing. Finally, it is the very knowing of nothing that will allow The Awareness to be aware of nothing except for itself.
It is The Awareness being aware of nothing except for itself, which will allow you, The Awareness, to become aware of your own infinite being. That is all. All that is left to do, is nothing. Whether the nothing is found in deep meditation or deep concentration, the physical being must surrender the will to do any thing, allowing The Awareness to become aware of itself.
The physical being must allow you, The Awareness, through the conscious alignment of itself with your nature, to become aware of yourself in the absence of… all things and all nothings.
That’s all. Now the physical being understands what “everything” entails, and how they can prepare themself to forget it. Yet, the physical being also understands that you, The Awareness, remain in the absence of “everything”. You remain in the absence of everything, but what are you? You are awareness. However, if awareness is not a thing, and if awareness is not no thing , what will awareness find in awareness? The only way to find out is for awareness to see itself in the absence of all somethings and all nothings.
What can you do? Be yourself. In other words, all you can be is awareness, so it is irrelevant to try and be any thing else. However, what can the physical being within the experience do? Nothing. Believe nothing, assume nothing, fear nothing, search for nothing, think nothing, do nothing and be nothing. Once the physical being surrenders the will to be something, they will become nothing.
The Knower will then be able to know nothingness, yet if there is nothing to know, The Knower cannot exist, for there is nothing left to be known. What remains? The awareness of the knowing of nothing. What remains is the awareness of nothing. In other words, what remains is awareness. The physical being must align themself with the nature of you, The Awareness, in order to allow you to become aware of only awareness. The physical being must find a way to find nothing, whether it be during deep meditation or deep concentration, to allow you, The Awareness, to become aware of only yourself.
The physical being must align themself with the transcendence of The Believer, which is to never fall victim to the menace of doubt. The physical being must align themself with the transcendence of The Knower, understanding that they themself exist within the experience, and are subject to The Knower, in the same way that The Knower is subject to you, The Awareness.
The physical being must come to the realisation that although hallucinations may be experienced within the experience, there is no thing that could harm or hurt you, for you are not within the experience. Whether it be a horrific nightmare, or a frightening experience in the waking state, the physical being must remain completely immune to fear. The physical being must come to the realisation that although they cannot ever comprehend you, The Awareness, they can accept your unfathomable nature.
The physical being can do no more than the doing of nothing, to allow you, The Awareness, to become aware of nothingness. The physical being must surrender the ability of doing anything, to allow you to be. The physical being must understand that they are to The Awareness what a story is to a book. In the same way a film is to the screen, the physical being is to you.
It might seem disheartening at first for the physical being to have no reason to believe in their independent existence, but what good is a book without a story? What good is a screen without a film? What good are eyes with no thing to see? What good is knowing with nothing to know? What good is awareness with nothing to be aware of? All these questions will be answered, but only once the physical being accepts the ultimate alignment of the self, with… nothingness.
On my journey to the awareness of nothing, the physical being I was aware of lost themself many times. It was not easy, and it was hardly ever fun. The joy would come from the realisations, of how I could not be hurt by pain, but only be aware of the knowing of such experience. The joy would come from the realisations that I have only ever been aware of the knowing of death, for the physical being of which I was aware has never died, thus relieving me of the irrational fear of death. Yet, there were many distressful moments where the physical being would question the purpose of their existence, should such a purpose even exist.
It was not necessarily that the physical being wanted to die, but understood that there was no death. At times this may be reassuring, for the awareness is eternal, but in moments where the physical being may have been experiencing sorrow or sadness, the impossibility of death was terrifying. Why would any one want to be forever if a sadness so heavy could exist? Why would any one want to be forever if a pain so damaging could be experienced? Why would any one want to be forever if there is no thing to believe in, at all?
The physical being started to believe they were insane, for the very denial of one’s existence is ridiculous. However, it was through the acceptance of the unfathomable, that the physical being understood what was happening as the knowing of a being who believed in the concept of… insanity. It was not easy, but it was never supposed to be. There were times where the physical being would forget, but thankfully, remembering would always follow. The physical being experienced many times of sadness and depression, but even in the darkest of times, they understood that it was simply an experience, with which the concept of sorrow was associated.
The physical being did not take out their confusion and anger on any one else, for it was understood that everyone may or may not have been experiencing their own story. Instead, the physical being became more empathetic than ever before, for it finally found something in common with all things. The physical being realised that all beings and all experiences are all… here. Everything was here, within the experience. That was all. But where was I?
I am awareness, I always have been aware, no where, yet the physical being of which I was aware simply forgot the nature of awareness. The physical being did not walk this path alone to better themself, but rather to reach the supposed “enlightenment” only few claim to boast. Yet, what ended up happening was the opposite, the physical being found nothing. That is, in the finding of nothing, the physical being I was aware of allowed me, The Awareness, to become aware of nothing, and to finally recognise myself. As a result, the physical being understood that they were exactly where they needed to be, and discovered the beauty of acceptance, ultimately bettering themself, and gaining the desire to help others do the same.
In the finding of nothing, the physical being I am aware of understood that what ever is aware of the knowing of their experience cannot be labelled, known, remembered or understood. Yet, it was the physical being remembering nothing, that allowed for the physical being to understand the impossibility of the awareness. The remembrance of nothing allowed for the realisation that there was simply nothing, no thing, to remember.
Yet, in the remembrance of nothing, the physical being understood everything. The physical being understood the joke of remembering nothing, for there truly was nothing to remember, ever, at all. The physical being understood that I, The Awareness, was aware of the knowing of the experience from no where, so much that they accepted it was ridiculous to even look, yet it was the very search that allowed them to find nothing, wherein I was able to become.
The physical being understood that they had to lose themself, so that there was nothing that I could be aware of, before I, The Awareness, could find the physical being once again. They remembered that though they believed they were lost, this whole time, they had been found, for I had always been aware of them. The physical being understood that there is no use in trying to understand, because I am not able to be understood. The physical being understood that there was no use in trying to remember, for I am not a thing that can be remembered. The physical being finally got the joke, that if I cannot be remembered, as I am not a thing that can be remembered, one must remember… nothing.
The physical being did not wait to reach enlightenment, or to know the ultimate order of the universe, before aligning themself with someone who might have already reached it. In other words, the physical being did not wait to know what cannot be known, before learning to empathise with others. The physical being did not wait to learn what cannot be learned, before trying to find ways to help and improve the livelihood of everyone and anyone. The physical being did not wait to remember what cannot be remembered, nothingness, before treating the world as an adventure wherein friends, family, memories, happiness and joy are all experiences to cherish for they are only ever here, now.
In the same way that there is nothing to remember, there is nothing to wait for. There is nothing that will make the physical being become a better person, or find a reason to keep going, other than the simple fact that they are here, now. There is nothing to live for other than the experience of living. There is nothing that will save you that has not already saved you, there is nothing that will find you that hasn’t already found you. There is nothing to do, that hasn’t already been done. That is, there is no more to do on the path to remembrance, but there is much to do on the way back. Now that you have the tools necessary to observe the experience absolutely, you will be able to recognise expressions of The Awareness in everything.
I cannot help you, for I cannot do any thing, except to be aware. However, I am within you. I am aware of the physical being who wrote this book, as much as you are aware of the physical being who is reading it. If this physical being pursues a conscious understanding of what it means for you to be at all, I have no doubt, for I cannot have any thing, that you will remember… nothing, within which a physical being may find everything.
The following chapters will attempt to explain what is able to be learned from what is already known about the nature of you, The Awareness. How will the physical being, of which you are aware, harness the ability to recognise the paradoxical, infinite and impossible nature of you… in everything?
After following the path of enlightenment, the last thing that the physical being of which I was aware expected was actually finding all that they were searching for. For the sake of simplicity, I will be referring to myself as the physical being, although it is important to remember that I am simply The Awareness. However, it is easier to articulate the following recollections from the perspective of a physical being rather than the awareness of one. Therefore, in the spirit of relatability, I will be referring to the physical being I am aware of in the first person.
Of course, this realisation was not made without the help of my teacher, Alexander, who I was able to find by pure luck. I was not looking for a teacher to teach me how to “reach enlightenment”, but instead I was looking for a spiritual mentor. I truly believed that if I could not find happiness in the physical world, I would learn how to become so good at meditation I’d be able to fly out of my body. I believed that at the height of spirituality, philosophy and religion, there was a physical being who was, at will, able to leave their body.
The purpose of this book is to convey the very understanding, and misunderstanding, responsible for centuries of religious conflict, spiritual excursions and existentialism in general. All the while maintaining the inevitable paradox that blossoms during the physical representation, or any representation, of the unknown, or rather the unable to be known.
The very “something” you are searching for, is in the everything you had to forget. Yet, it was necessary that you learned to detach your physical self from the “I” that is aware, in order to observe the experience as a whole, rather than an experience that is subject to a physical being. You had to learn how to see the flower in the painting in the same way you see a flower in the garden, so that you can see another person in the experience in the same way you see yourself in the experience.
There is no physical being that can reach enlightenment, for enlightenment is not a thing that can be reached. Now what? What can you do, when there is nothing to do? How can you apply what you understand regarding the nature of The Awareness to the experience? If The Awareness is in all things, how can you find it? If The Awareness is everywhere, how can you see it? If The Awareness is the joke, what’s the punchline?
As there is no word to describe what I aim to illustrate, I will be referring to it as The Expression. The Expression is simply what I recognised during my so called “reaching of enlightenment”, yet I could not recognise it in the same way I recognise a face. The Expression is what I saw during my “reaching of enlightenment”, yet I could not see it in the same way I see a cloud. It is impossible to explain how I became aware of it, other than to say I was simply aware. More so, it was not that I recognised The Expression, but rather I understood that it had always been recognising the physical being of which I am aware.
If The Expression was an infinite ocean, with an infinite number of waves, one wave would represent The Awareness. The smaller the wave, the closer to nothingness the physical being of which The Awareness is aware becomes. When the wave has completely lost all of its momentum, the wave disappears into the tranquil ocean, wherein the wave does not necessarily become the ocean as if it never was, but rather it returns to the serenity of the restful ocean.
Accordingly, when the physical being finds its way to nothingness, The Awareness will not become The Expression as if it never was, but rather it returns to the infinite, unfathomable serenity of The Expression, from whence it came. For the purpose of clarity, it has already been understood that The Awareness is infinite, as in, it is a point that cannot be reached. However, its infinite vastness should not at all be compared to The Expression, for it is so infinite, not even the word “infinite” can do it justice.
The wave will once again return, though this time with less vigour and less opposition to the melodious tides. In the same way, the physical being will once again return into the awareness of The Awareness, though this time with less conflict and little to no desire of doing any thing other than simply… being.
The Expression is the ocean, and once it is recognised as the very not nothing and not something from which all nothings and all somethings become, the physical being will understand. The physical being will understand that there was never an enlightenment that had to be reached, but only an eternal enlightening that had to be remembered.
It is the essence of The Expression that you will be able to find in all things, for it is impossible to accurately express not nothing and not something. Yet, it is the acceptance and understanding of the essence of The Expression that is able to be found, but never The Expression. How can a wave lose itself if it is always being found by the ocean? How can a physical being lose themself if they are always being found by The Expression?
In the process of recognising patterns and abstractions in all things, it is important to know what you cannot know. Now that you have transcended The Believer, The Knower and recognised yourself as The Awareness, it is easier to view the physical being within the experience as no more than a cog in a machine. A very convincing machine. Isn’t it convincing? The machine is the physical experience of the universe, and the cog is the physical being of which you are aware.
Yet, in the coming chapters I will be referring to you in question, hoping that you understand the nature of your being well enough so that words do not confuse you. For example, should I say that you need to look in the mirror to see your eyes, understand that The Awareness cannot look, for it does not have the capacity to look. Instead, realise that though I am referring to you in the same way I would a physical being, I am only doing so for the ease of illustration.
You are The Awareness, yet you are aware of the knowing of the experience in which a physical being exists. It is this physical being who is reading this sentence, yet I can also say that it is you who is reading this sentence, as long as you understand the distinction between being the physical being, which you are not, and being the awareness aware of a physical being. Should I ask you to find anything, understand that although The Awareness is incapable of finding, the physical being is able to search, allowing The Awareness to become aware of a physical being searching and finding.
Upon learning to observe the experience from the perspective of no one, where no one is no where, you will find it is less likely to ever fall victim to the menace of doubt. In other words, since you are now recognising the experience, instead of believing that you are experiencing it, it is less likely that you will fall victim to the menace of doubt. As long as you are observing the physical being as the ocean observes a wave, you will be able to unlock a remarkable and natural ability. You will be able to tap into the very essence of this experience, allowing you to recognise the algorithmic nature of all things.
You are not the experience, nor are you the physical being who is limited by the lens through which they are able to see. You are The Awareness, yet you are aware of the knowing of the experience. In this experience, the physical being cannot know another physical being’s experience. The physical being cannot know another’s experience without first superimposing their own subjective interpretation upon it.
In the repetitive recognition of all things, it is important for the physical being to align themself with the nature of The Awareness, in that no judgements are made and no sentimentality is expressed. The experience should not be limited by any beliefs, assumptions or allusions. For example, in the event that four horses are being observed, the only revelation that should be taken from this experience is: the knowing of the experience in which four horses are being observed.
Accordingly, neither The Knower nor The Awareness has the capacity to express sentimentality. Should sentimentality be expressed in the analysis of abstractions, you are simply aware of the knowing of the experience in which a physical being is experiencing sentimentality. Should sentimentality be expressed at all, the physical being is superimposing their ability to express sentimentality upon the nature of The Awareness, wherein lies the delusion. The delusion lies in the belief that The Awareness and The Knower have the capacity to be any thing other than aware and knowing, respectively.
Although I ask you to recognise and observe the experience, I do not intend to confuse you in regards to the capabilities of The Knower or The Awareness. The physical being should recognise and observe the experience, while being conscious of the essence of The Knower and the nature of The Awareness, so as to allow for the awareness of an experience unhindered by belief, bias, or sentimentality.
You remember the thought you observed which resulted in your change of direction, from heading to the carnival, to searching for an inn. You think it ridiculous, but choose to entertain it nonetheless. You see that the ‘change in direction’ abstraction was present in the thought you observed, the physical path you were walking, the horse drawn carriage and inevitably, the fellow who instructed the change in direction. The fellow would have observed a similar thought wherein the ‘change in direction’ abstraction was present, resulting in the horses turning the same corner.
Instead of delving into the crux of Fibonacci or mastering quantum mechanics, we are able to explore a wondrous tool that exists within the mind of the physical being: imagination. Analogies are most often used to help convey an understanding in short story form, but with the infinite potential analogies hold, it would be beneficial to explore their nature to understand the underlying principles that govern their complexion. To understand their complexion is to understand why we are able to use them to describe or simplify, fundamentally anything.
So far on your journey to the carnival, you have recognised two abstractions, ‘closing a thing’ and ‘change in direction’. The name or label given to an abstraction is irrelevant and does not need to be meaningful at all. The only thing an abstraction requires is your awareness of it. In the same way the physical being had to align themself with the nature of The Awareness, which is only ever aware, the physical being must now align their abstracting of the experience with the nature of The Awareness. In other words, the physical being will soon be able to relate all expressions of abstractions to the infinite, paradoxical, momentary and familiar nature of The Awareness.
The physical being must remember the infinite nature of The Awareness, always abstracting any concepts and ideas observed in the experience. Furthermore, in the same way you were able to transcend The Believer and The Knower to recognise yourself as The Awareness, you must attempt to not only abstract obvious concepts and ideas, but you must also abstract… abstractions! Should you recognise the abstraction of ‘two things side by side’ , or the abstraction of ‘a thing that is blue’, understand that each abstraction can always be further abstracted.
Examples of expressions of the infinite essence of The Knower within the experience are eyes that cannot see themselves, seeing and hearing thoughts that cannot be seen nor heard and our inability to understand what cannot be understood. In the same way The Knower is knowing, a physical being within the experience is experiencing. At this point, it should become apparent that all things and all no things express the nature of what they are subject to.
It is not the finding of a place that is no where that a physical being must do, but rather it is the acceptance that such a place cannot be found. You must understand that there is no point in looking for what cannot be found nor seen. Similarly, once the Leprechaun accepts the infinite and unfathomable nature of The Awareness, it will finally align itself with the nature of The Awareness.
You have at times forgotten the nature of The Awareness, although it is always aware. If a physical being forgets the nature of The Awareness, The Awareness does not stop being aware. Its awareness is independent of any thing or any no thing. It is simply, always aware, eternally and forever, now.
You realise that how familiar you are with your own experience is an expression of familiarity. You realise that how familiar you are with your own physical appearance is also an expression of familiarity. You realise that all expressions of familiarity allude to the infinite nature of The Awareness. Are all things and all nothings simply expressions of the unfathomable and infinite nature of The Awareness? You choose not to assume. Instead, you think it wise to explore the carnival in the hopes of recognising all of its expressions.
Are you able to abstract any thing and always find expressions of The Awareness? What about all nothings? Are you able to abstract the physical being you are aware of and find expressions of The Awareness? Well, the answer to the last question is easy: Yes! That is exactly what you have been doing this entire time, all the way from believing you were The Believer to recognising yourself as The Awareness.
You recognised the abstraction of ‘not being amazed by a thing that has happened before’, and now understand that in the same way infinity is a point that can never be reached, the infinite nature of abstracting will only let you believe that you have it all figured out. In the same way the physical being cannot comprehend The Knower, you cannot out-abstract the infinite nature of abstracting, for you are an abstraction. You cannot transcend the nature of abstracting with abstracting, for you will still be abstracting!
In the same way that abstractions can forever be abstracted, The Knower always knows and The Awareness is always aware. In the same way abstractions can abstract abstractions recursively and forever, The Awareness is aware of The Awareness recursively and forever. You start to appreciate abstractions as a medium through which physical concepts and ideas can be expressed and related back to The Awareness, which all things express. Instead of only ever being aware of the knowing of the experience, you are now able to delve into the experience and use the concept of ‘abstracting’ to analyse and break apart, as well as unify, any and every concept and idea you may or may not come upon.
The first expression which expressed this abstraction was you observing the cyclical movement of the carousel. The second expression was the revelation that infinite and cyclical things are able to be observed finitely. You found that in the same way you allowed yourself to observe the ‘observing a cyclical thing’, The Knower allowed the physical being to do… anything. The Knower allowed the physical being to do, by knowing them into existence.
Yet, you realise that for as long as you can remember, you have always been doing things for no reason, other than for the doing of a thing. In the same way the little Leprechaun plays with its dominos because it is playing with its dominos, you rode the carousel because you rode the carousel. You remember that a physical being who aligns themself with the infinite and unfathomable nature of The Awareness cannot reason, but only ever be. In the same way, The Awareness can only ever be aware, for no reason other than because it is aware. The Awareness is aware because it is awareness.
You recognise the ‘exploring something until you reach a high point of understanding’ abstraction. The first expression of it being the entire experience at the carnival thus far, and the second expression being your ability to recognise ambiguous and repetitive abstractions throughout their many expressions! You understand that you deciding to go to the carnival allowed you to both reach a higher physical recognition of the carnival, as well as reach a higher metaphysical recognition of your experience.
In the remembrance of the nature of The Awareness, you follow the chain of consciousness all the way back to The Believer. You remember how you used to believe that the separation of things was undeniable. As you progressed and deconstructed your interpretation of what was assumed to be reality, you found that it was only your interpretation of a reality, hindered by beliefs, assumptions and sentimental attachments. In the dissecting of your being, you understood that there was never a physical being and a physical world, but rather one awareness aware of one knowing of one experience. There is only ever one awareness, regardless of what it is aware of.
You recognised the experience from the knowing of The Knower, and The Knower from the awareness of The Awareness. Yet, in the recognition of The Believer, The Knower and The Awareness, you were only ever one. That is, in the beginning you were one physical being believing. Then, you were The Knower knowing. Finally, you recognised yourself as The Awareness, which is only ever aware.
In this experience, wherein many expressions of duality exist, the nature of the physical world inevitably alludes to a oneness. May there be a thousand islands, all a part of one Earth. May there be a thousand planets, all a part of one cosmos. May there be a thousand galaxies, all a part of one universe. May there be a thousand universes, all a part of one awareness.
In what way would you see a thing? In exactly the way that you would see a thing. Seeing is to knowing what the physical being is to the Knower. Seeing is to knowing what instruments are to an orchestra. Seeing is to knowing what books are to literature.
You realise that seeing is but one expression of knowing, coupled with the expression of hearing, smelling, touching and tasting. As erratic thoughts seize your mind, you realise that they too are expressions of the knowing. Yet, regardless of all the different expressions of knowing, both physical and of the mind, you understand that this experience is one expression of the knowing. You cannot see duality anymore, but only a unified experience. There is no more something and no more nothing, only this.
You, the reader, were the no thing, and no one that the character in the story was searching for, yet you were always finding them. You were not in the story, meaning that you were no where to be found. This no where was not able to be known by the character, for it was not a place that existed in the story. In the same way, you are here, but The Awareness is not. That is, the whereabouts of The Awareness is not able to be known by the physical being you are aware of, for it is unfathomable.
In the same way the character in this story surrendered their experiencing of Carnival Island, you must surrender your experiencing of yourself. Whether it be through deep meditation or insight concentration, the physical being must find nothing, allowing The Awareness to become aware of nothing. In the awareness of nothing, The Awareness will become aware of itself, and the physical being will remember what cannot be remembered.
The Piece-Keeper reached enlightenment at the exact moment it realised that it knew everything that could be known. It understood that the physical journey to enlightenment was complete, and that there was no more it could do. It became aware of the cyclical nature of its being, and realised it had only ever been aware of it. In that moment, when the Piece-Keeper accepted that all that could be known was known, there was complete surrender.
The domino pieces represent the abstractions and patterns in this cyclical, physical expression of life. Regardless of how unique the pieces may seem, they all belong to the same expression. The objective of every piece is to fall so that it can once again return to a perfect, standing equilibrium. Not only do the pieces express the abstractions and patterns of life, but also the abstraction of you.
You are the piece that fell, though you have fallen into place. You are the piece that allowed the search to go on, and the Piece-Keeper that will search forever. You must find the abstractions and patterns of your life, and know from experience the cyclical nature of your being. That is, you must abstract every memory the physical being of which you are aware is able to remember. You will find a pattern, an abstraction, an expression, that you have always belonged to. The recognition of this pattern or abstraction is the beginning of remembering your “something”.
Once the physical self is perfectly aligned with the nature of The Awareness, enlightenment will be recognised. You are like the Earth, and The Awareness the sun. It is always shining so that you can see, though its very existence is blinding. The pursuit of enlightenment is no different than staring into the blaring lustre of the Sun, whose light will burn your eyes. Yet, reaching enlightenment is closing your eyes, and simply knowing that the Sun remains.
Instead of abstracting Carnival Island, find abstractions within your awareness of the experience. Instead of abstracting the Leprechaun, find abstractions of the characters within the experience. Instead of abstracting the character in the story, find abstractions of the physical being of which you are aware. Make sure to abstract all possible things and no things, no matter how insignificant they may seem. Accordingly, abstract memories you observe, physical experiences you encounter and any thoughts that may appear.
Until the inevitable becoming of nothing, find abstractions and expressions of yourself, as well as all aspects of the experience. It is likely that you have read this book with a sober mind. Should you find yourself in a different state of consciousness or a different level of awareness, make use of such an opportunity by finding abstractions and their many expressions. Should you find yourself in a state of sadness or joy, excitement or boredom, try to understand the experience from the perspective of The Awareness, instead of the perspective of a physical being.
The Awareness is aware of the physical being who is reading this book, as well as the physical being who wrote it. The Awareness is aware of the physical being whose thoughts you are able to know, as well as the physical beings whose thoughts you have never known.
The only difference between the physical being of which you are aware, and another, is the perspective of awareness from which you are aware. Would you treat yourself the same way you would treat others? Would you hate yourself the same way you would hate others? Would you hurt yourself the same way you would hurt others?
Should you know the experience in which a great sadness or pain has become, battle through the aching and abstract every aspect of every observation. Understand how the abstractions you recognise are expressing the nature of The Awareness. If pain appears, try to understand where it is appearing. If pain appears, try to understand to whom it is appearing. Is it appearing to the physical being, or The Awareness? If you are able to withstand the pain and live to tell the tale, what could this resilience possibly express?
This is all here, for you. If not for you, then who is it for? Is the story not subject to the physical being? Is the physical being not subject to the experience? Is the experience not subject to The Knower? Is The Knower not subject to The Awareness? Are you not The Awareness? The story you know is the story you know. The body you have is the body you have. Everything you know is everything you know and what you do not know is what you do not know. All that you are aware of is all that you are aware of.
You have been on quite the adventure within the experience. At this point in the journey, there are two simple lessons with which the physical being should find themself in complete alignment. All things are expressions of the nature of The Awareness and you are The Awareness which all things express. These two lessons are all you need to understand on your journey to a place that cannot be a place.
In other words, as all things and all beings are you, it follows that the “one” who is speaking, at all, is you. These words are not spoken by, but spoken through the physical beings that express the formless abstractions into existence in the form of spoken word. Who is the one that is speaking through me, right now?
Understand that all things are the self with which “myself” is associated. Understand that the physical being of which you are aware is but a small focus point of your infinite awareness of the knowing of experience. You are to the universe what a flower is to a painting, but who is the painter? Whenever someone speaks of themself, they are speaking of you, and whenever you speak of someone, you are speaking of yourself.
If you find it difficult and distressing to recognise expressions of yourself in all things, try to comprehend the negativity felt from a place of love. Does negativity not express your attitude toward yourself, The Awareness, for leaving you, the physical being who is searching, all alone and searching to find a thing that cannot be found? Understand that it takes time and patience to love your own imperfections, let alone someone else’s. Fortunately you are now aware that the “someone else” is just another expression of you, The Awareness.
Remember every person you have ever met and the significance they had on your life. Recognise that they too are on their own eternal search for the ultimate realisation, in a physical expression only they can understand. Appreciate all the friends in which you’ve confided, and forgive the ones who betrayed you, for they were betraying themself.
It is also necessary that you completely understand the properties of the nature of The Awareness in order to seamlessly analyse your experience. Although we are exploring the nature of shared abstractions, each physical being will have their own story, within which unique expressions are expressed.
The path you take on the journey of finding depends on your physical and metaphysical inclination, whether it is mathematical or artistic, scientific or literary. You must find a focus in which you have tremendous proficiency, before using it to abstract and search for the innuendo in all things. In other words, you need to understand what you understand the most, in order to be able to use its methods of problem solving in the discovery of the innuendo.
Imagine a physical manifestation of the nature of The Awareness was a chalice that held never-ending ink. Now imagine every human was to use the same ink to dip their quills. Their quills represent the essence of their own nature, from which all their beliefs, values, aspirations and dreams are expressed. Each human uses their quill to write their own unique story. Although the stories might have no similarities whatsoever, each story would still be connected through the expressiveness of the same ink.
Though there may be an infinite number of tales to tell, it is a human who is telling. Though each memory holds a different purpose, it is you who remembers. Though there are infinite things to see, infinite songs to hear, infinite foods to taste, infinite aromas to savour and infinite feelings to feel, it is you who is aware. What your physical story is to you, you are to the story of life.
You notice the simultaneous propagation of an invisible, formless abstraction expressed both outwardly into the physical throughout all things, and inwardly into your line of perception. Though there are countless imaginary lines from the perspective of your observations, you recognise the relation between your ability to see at all, and all that is able to be seen.
You realise your eyes are the physical manifestation of your awareness, for without them you cannot see, though they cannot see themself. Then you notice your awareness is the manifestation of your awareness, and in that moment you become infinity.
This abstraction becomes apparent in so many concepts and ideas of which you are already aware. Your physical body is to you, The Awareness, what the marionette is to the master, and what the painting is to the painter, or the music to the musician.
You compare the forever-knowingness of the obvious, yet ambiguous knowing, to the awakening from a physical sleep every day. The sleeping is to the waking what forgetting is to remembering. The unknown to the known parallels belief and doubt, friend or foe, all that is and all that is not. You remember that you were only ever remembering, and will forever only remember. The day is to the night what life is to death, a never-ending cycle that is out of your control.
You recognise that you were so distracted by the withering thoughts of your mind, that you had not recognised the withering expressions within your experience. What has befallen you, has befallen your experience. How could the physical being let this happen? How could the physical being be so blind to its surroundings? How could the physical being be so blind?
It does not matter. The reasons as to why the physical being is where the physical being is do not matter. They are inconsequential facts of an illusory past. Just as well, they are inconsequential facts that are easily interchangeable. What does matter is what the physical being decides to do. Does the physical being choose to dwell in misery, or try to influence change within the experience?
What is apparent now? The multiple expressions expressing the abstraction of ‘withering’ are apparent now, within the experience. You already know that it is important to stray away from the notion of sentimentality throughout the recognition of all the expressions. That is, all expressions of the abstraction of ‘withering’ must be recognised with the same apathy so as to not exaggerate the physical being’s illusory self-importance over the experience. All things within the experience hold exactly the same meaning, or exactly the same lack of meaning.
Remember that The Awareness does not have the capacity to feel sentimentality. Should you become aware of the notion of sentimentality toward yourself, it is not you, The Awareness, who is aware. It is the physical being of which you are aware entertaining the notion of sentimentality, forgetting the nature of The Awareness, which is not able to feel anything.
Instead of feeling pitiful toward a miserable situation, whether it be your health, current financial status or environment, understand that you are simply aware of many expressions expressing the abstraction of ‘feeling pitiful toward something’, one of which is the physical being’s state of mind. Always aim to transcend the experience’s attempts to distract you back into itself, by repetitively abstracting concepts and ideas until there is nothing left to abstract, apart from the untethered abstraction of an experience.
Instead of believing that you are a physical being, abstracting an experience, understand that you are only aware of the knowing of an experience in which a physical being believes. You are aware of an experience in which a physical being believes they are self-governing and not another expression of an abstraction.
For example, the physical being may believe their withered state of mind is not an expression of their withered garden, or of their withering experience. Yet, regardless of what is believed, the abstraction of ‘withering’ is being expressed throughout the physical being, the garden and the experience.
You understand that within your recognition of the abstraction of ‘withering’ and its many expressions, things are withering. Some of the things are the physical being’s state of mind and health, their garden and the experience. You also understand that within the experience, any expression that the physical being is able to express is subject to the abstraction of the physical being. Similarly, the physical being is subject to the experience.
Where there is fear, you can find serenity. Where there is hatred, you can find love. Where there is chaos, you can find peace. Where there is a thing, you can find the opposite of it. That is, if there is an abstraction of ‘withering’, you can find the abstraction of ‘growing’. Where do you find it? Here. You can find the abstraction of ‘growing’ here, right now. You can find the abstraction of anything here. Whether you find such an abstraction within the knowing of a thought or the knowing of a physical experience, it remains true that the same abstraction is what is being expressed.
Even if you are unable to find expressions of the abstraction of ‘growing’ within the physical experience, you are able to find a thought expressing the abstraction of ‘growing’. This is done, of course, by using your imagination. By “using” your imagination, I mean knowing the experience of thought, in which imagination is entertained. Within imagination, any thing can be expressed, of course within the confines and limitations of thought. That is, you are able to imagine absolutely anything you are able to imagine.
The imagination, or knowing of a thought, is not more or less significant than the knowing of a physical experience. Similarly, the knowing of a thought expressing the abstraction of ‘growing’, is not more or less significant than the knowing of a physical experience in which a thing is expressing the abstraction of ‘growing’. The Knower cannot know significance, but rather The Knower knows the experience in which a thing may or may not be deemed more or less significant than another thing.
What does it cost the physical being to exist within the experience in which a beautiful garden belongs? What did it cost the physical being to exist within the experience in which a withering garden belonged? What did it cost the physical being to exist within the experience at all? The physical being is not able to escape the expressiveness of the experience, for without the experience, the physical being could not be. In other words, if the experience expressed the abstraction of ‘withering’, and the physical being is subject to the experience, they too will inevitably express the abstraction of ‘withering’.
The physical being will express whatever the experience is expressing, inevitably. That is, unless the physical being is willing to go against the grain. In other words, the physical being will express whatever the experience is expressing, unless they are willing to contradict the experience’s current disposition. If the experience is expressing the abstraction of ‘withering’, displeasing the physical being, the physical being is able to force themself to express the abstraction of ‘growth’ within the experience.
The physical being must express the abstraction of ‘growth’ in any instance of the experience which evidently expresses the abstraction of ‘withering’. This is no easy feat, as the whole experience will be against you, until it is not. The whole experience will be against you, as you will be against it. If you are displeased with its current withering disposition, or whichever abstraction it is so prevalently expressing, you must do what you can to create or influence as many instances as possible, wherein the abstraction of ‘growth’ is expressed.
What is the purpose of the experience challenging you at all? The purpose is for the purpose of the experience challenging you, and that is all. The purpose is for the purpose of finding your own purpose, and that is all. The experience is you! As much as you are aware of the physical being, you are aware of the physical world. Do not fall for the illusion of perspective, in that you can see the physical world from the perspective of a physical being’s eyes. Understand that all you are aware of is the knowing of experience. Yet, this experience is you.
The experience is where the physical being exists. The physical being is an isolated focus of the experience. In other words, the physical being is the experience. The physical being is the experience whose physical expressions and physical abstractions are superimposed by the physical being’s interpretation. Yet, it remains that the physical being cannot be anything other than the experience itself. A single wave in the ocean is a single wave in the ocean, yet it remains a part of the ocean.
The Awareness is aware of The Awareness, infinitely. Just as well, The Awareness is aware of the experience. The Awareness is the experience, manifested in the form of a physical world, in which the interpretation of a physical being is superimposed on a world of formless abstractions. The Awareness is the experience, manifested in the form of a physical world which is only, and can only express the infinite, paradoxical, ridiculous and unified nature of The Awareness. You are The Awareness, meaning you are the experience. You are challenging yourself! Why? You tell me.
It would be ridiculous for me to assume why you do anything at all. It would be ridiculous for me to give reason as to why you want anything at all. All I am able to do, is assume that you are doing and wanting. You are either doing something or doing nothing, and you are maybe wanting something or wanting nothing. The only thing I can do is assume you are as you are. The only place you will find reason is within you. You will find reason within you, which includes The Awareness, the knowing of experience, the expressions within and the physical being who is experiencing them.
In the context of the experience, your “everything” may be your health, physical possessions, convenience, ease of living and any thing you are able to sacrifice, for the attainment of something. These questions may seem difficult to ponder, but there is a very, very simple way of answering them. Try. Would you watch a horror film alone? Try to watch a horror film alone, and if you do, then the answer is yes. Would you enter a haunted house alone? Try to enter a haunted house alone, and if you do, then the answer is yes.
As you find your way into your renovated cabin, you also find pleasure in the symmetry of the paintings hanging on the wall. You peer around the room and find every thing in exactly the place it’s supposed to be, which is the place you want everything to be. There is nothing else you are able to do, nor is there anything you want to change. You realise that in the same way you have found peace doing nothing, The Awareness can find itself when the physical being surrenders the will to be or do anything, becoming nothing. The physical being will find peace in the doing of nothing, whether it is the realisation of enlightenment or the realisation of not having to do anything within the experience. In nothing, there is peace.
In the same way The Awareness does not have the capacity to do any thing, the monk does nothing. In the same way the Awareness is to become aware of nothing, the monk expresses the physical expression of doing nothing. The monk expresses The Awareness by doing nothing and saying nothing. The monk is not searching for anything, for the monk has already found themself. The monk does not rush in a hurry to any thing that is bound by time, nor does the monk need any where to be, since the monk knows that here is everywhere.
You realise that although this journey is a lonely road, once you find yourself you will never be alone again. You understand that every physical being that exists within the experience is necessary, simply because they are here. They are here, expressing… something. They are here expressing something, and whether or not you ever find out what their 'something’ is, depends on your desire to approach them. Have you found your ‘something’ yet?
The crowd is excited and enjoying the entertainment, the perfect expression for The Awareness that is aware of the ridiculous chaos unfolding at the old bazaar. You remember that it is not two awareness’ that are each aware of one physical being, but rather one Awareness aware of countless experiences, one of which is you. You recognise the abstraction of conflict, first expressed by the merchant and the thief, and then by the preacher and the unholy.
“The Jester believes in the power of laughter, in that it can cure the deepest sorrows. The Jester believes that self worth is dependant on whether or not others are entertained. The Jester believes that ridiculous physical expression is necessary for the expression of comedy. The Jester believes that they belong in the limelight, wherein they are able to make crowds upon crowds roar with laughter. The Jester believes in the importance of ridiculousness, and takes pride in their comical approach toward the experience of life.”
It is okay to stay here, in this physical world, where a physical being is reading a physical book. It is okay to want to leave, but as long as you come back. Do not leave forever. If you want to follow nothingness into the impossible depths of no where, find what you are looking for and come back.