If you were to travel into town and tell the folks at the old bazaar of this wilted rose, would they believe you? If you were to meet an old friend, whose trust in you is as unquestionable as your unquestionable knowing of the rose, would they have any reason to doubt you? Should anyone express confidence in you, this confidence would rely on either your proven ability to be truthful, or their belief that you would never lie. By definition of the word “belief”, the confidence they expressed in you would be enough to believe in you, and as a result believe in the existence of the wilted rose, though they would have never seen it.
This is a simple example, yet it holds true whether or not the flower exists. The belief is not at all dependant on the friend’s experience of the flower, but rather the belief and trust they express in you. Even if the flower does not exist, as far as your friend is concerned, their belief holds true, and to them the flower is still real. To them, the flower is real even though you know it does not exist. The difference between you and your friend is the knowing of the flower’s true nature.
Perched upon the rickety stool, you recognise the ridiculousness of The Knower. Although you believe there is a fireplace behind you, based on both the vivid memory of having seen it and the warm embrace of your humble cabin, you don’t know that it is behind you. You know that you are able to know the memory of having seen a fireplace. You also know that you are knowing the experience of warmth, but what else do you know?
You know the concept or idea of a fireplace. You know the concept or idea of warmth. You know the concept or idea of a humble cabin. You know the concept or idea of knowing a concept or idea. You know what you know in this single moment, but when is this single moment? What is time? Is The Knower able to know time? Is the Knower able to change in time? Has The Knower ever known any thing in the past, and will The Knower ever know any thing in the future? What is the past and what is the future? When is The Knower?
The Knower cannot know time, since time is subject to the experience, and The Knower is not within the experience. However, The Knower is able to know the concept of time through the knowing of thought, wherein the idea and conceptualisation of time is understood. Since you are The Knower, I will be referring to The Knower as you, until we once again transcend the current state of awareness. Similarly, although the physical being reading the book may still be actively choosing to read the book, they will be referred to as: the physical being, instead of “you”, for you have transcended the physical being. You have become The Knower.
No thing can happen at any time other than now. Although the physical being within the experience might say “But I remember what I did yesterday, and I was definitely doing it!”, that is you knowing a thought in which the belief in a “yesterday” exists. This is no easy understanding, for it requires you, The Knower, to disavow all remembered experiences as no more than the knowing of a thought wherein a memory exists. A memory that holds no significance to you, The Knower. A memory that is no different than a passing thought that is observed; A memory whose significance you must be able to let go of completely.
The physical being must be ready to align themself with you, The Knower, and recognise the knowing of the experience, rather than the falsifiable experience of it. The physical being within the experience must be ready to align themself with The Knower, and recognise the knowing of an experience. This means that the physical being must recognise the knowing of the experience of emotions, rather than the belief that they are experiencing them.
There is no thing, for the concept of a thing is within the knowing of the experience, or the six senses. The physical being must be ready to let go of everything that is believed, remembered, and soon enough, known, in order to transcend The Knower and become The Awareness. In the becoming, or rather the recognition of The Awareness, you will finally be able to become aware of the knowing of nothing.
Any time that is believed by the physical being to be known other than now, is simply the knowing of a thought that is still happening now. You have never experienced time, for it is not a thing you, The Knower, can experience. Rather, you know the experience in which a physical being observes the effects of time in the physical world. You are not a thing that changes in time. You are the knowing of a physical experience in which time is used to measure change. Therefore, time cannot affect you, The Knower. Time cannot affect you because time is subject to the experience, and the experience is subject to you, The Knower.
It may seem difficult to grasp the concept of no time, since it is all the physical being has ever believed in thus far. Instead of trying to imagine a world that is frozen in the now, wherein nothing changes, understand that it is impossible to catch the moment for it is so instantaneous, that by the time you find it, it is already gone. It is hard to conceptualise one moment in which you have always been, when the physical being believes that they remember being alive for so very long. However, try to understand that it was not the physical being being alive, but rather you knowing the experience of the physical being being alive. It was never the physical being within the experience that was knowing, it was you, The Knower.
It only takes you one moment to know the experience of a physical being. One moment where the knowing of a thought in which countless memories, beliefs and identities can be observed. One moment where the knowing of an experience of a physical being is observed. One moment is all it took for you, The Knower, to know the experience in which the physical being believed in the illusion that they were knowing, rather than being known by you, The Knower.
In the same way the past only exists in the knowing of a thought in which the concept of a past exists, the future is no more than imagined foresight observed in the same knowing of thought. Any thing that can be expected to happen at a time other than now, is simply the knowing of a thought in which the concept of an imagined future or a remembered past exists. There is no past and there is no future that can exist outside of the knowing of a thought that is happening now. In other words, should a memory or imagined foresight be observed in the knowing of thought, that thought is being known, now.
You realise that in the remembering of a past, The Knower is knowing the experience in which a physical being is remembering a past. Similarly, in the pondering of the future, The Knower is knowing the experience in which a physical being is pondering the future. You look to the empty chalice that lays toppled to your left and vividly remember the night before. “How can the memory of yesterday be untrue? How can this experience of remembering be so convincing? How can this empty chalice remind me of a thing that I have never experienced?”
Although there are tokens present in the physical experience that remind the physical being of a memory, such as a photograph or a letter, you are knowing an experience in which a photograph or a letter seems to hold significant meaning. These memories, observed in a thought that is known by you, tell a story of a past, or predict the happenings of a future. Yet, they are being known by you, The Knower, now. It is a paradoxical concept that the physical being must come to terms with, in that it cannot be understood with the same understanding one would use in the unravelling of physical concepts with which they may or may not be familiar.
I am by no means discerning the physical experience you are knowing as unintelligent, or incapable of convincing you, The Knower, that you are experiencing it. Instead, I am showing you that it has thus far succeeded in making the physical being forget the essence of your knowing. The experience you are knowing will keep finding a way to bring you back. It will tirelessly try to make you believe that you are experiencing a thing, instead of the knowing of it. Yet, you cannot believe any thing, for you do not have the capacity to believe, but only to know.
You will know a thought in which memories of the physical being’s childhood exist, memories of loved ones, memories of hardships and successes. You will observe the knowing of thoughts with sentimental meaning, but the physical being must not forget that you are simply knowing an experience in which the physical being exists, rather than experiencing one.
It is not the knowing of a physical experience, nor is it the experience that is the illusion. The illusion lies in the knowing of a belief that The Knower can ever exist within this physical experience. However, you are simply aware of it, thus it cannot be you. The experience is subject to you, The Knower, in the same way that a film is subject to the screen.
The past and the future exist only in the knowing of thought. Though the thought in which they are known will always happen now. You can know a thought of a memory of a past, but it remains as the knowing of a thought, and nothing else. You cannot do any thing other than the knowing of experience, whether it is physical or of a thought. Time exists within the experience of which you are knowing, meaning you, The Knower, are not bound by it. You know now, and in the same way, never. You are momentary, and in the same way, infinite. You have always known, and in the same way, will forever know.
You are not a thing that is bound by time or space, making you momentary and boundless. Since you are not bound by the limitations of time, you are thus infinite, since no time has no beginning and no end. In the same way, you are not bound by space, and you are infinite. No thing exists no where, and no where does not have a space that can be occupied, rather it has no space at all. You are not bound by the limitations of physical space, for you do not, and cannot, exist in a physical place. You have no mass and you have no volume, for mass and volume are concepts that can only exist within the knowing of an experience in which a physical world exists.
When I refer to you knowing your ‘something’, I am not referring to the physical being reading this book, but The Knower, who is knowing the experience in which a physical being is reading. There are no others to know this experience, for the concept or belief that any one else can exist remains within the experience you are knowing. There is no probability or likeliness that you are the only one who is able to know, because there is no probability or likeliness at all. The probability of something happening is a concept exclusive to the experience you, The Knower, know. It cannot exist outside of the experience.
You are no thing, you are no where, and you are knowing now. The probability of you knowing an experience is not a quantifiable number, for you are only ever knowing the concept of “probability” when you know a thought in which probability can be pondered. You are only ever knowing of the concept of “probability” when you are knowing an experience in which the concept of “probability” exists. When are you knowing this experience? Now.
Do not be fooled by the delusion that is trying to assign a quantifiable probability to no thing, for it is impossible. This knowing of an experience is happening now, to no one, no thing, and it is happening no where. The probability of this happening is both impossible, and definite, which yields a paradoxical truth that will not help you at all in the search for comfort, but instead further confuse the physical being. There is no point in trying to comprehend the probability or likeliness of you, The Knower knowing this experience, being the only one who is able to know, because you are the only one at all. The Knower is the only Knower, and you are The Knower.
Remember, you are The Knower, and you are only ever knowing, now. If you happen to know any thoughts along the lines of: “What are the chances of me coming upon this book which just happens to know that I am The Knower, and not just another reader!” or “Is it just a coincidence that I was able to find this book or was I meant to find it?” try to understand that you are not the physical being who found the book, you are The Knower, knowing the experience in which a physical being finds a book. Do not ponder the significance of the experience at all, nor the nature of such an unlikely coincidence, for it is not a coincidence happening to you. It is a coincidence happening in the knowing of an experience.
To ponder the likeliness of coincidence or probability that The Knower is knowing at all will only bring your awareness back to the experience you have transcended. You, The Knower, are not able to know coincidence or probability, only the experience in which coincidences or probabilities may or may not exist. You are not within the experience, making you unable to experience any thing at all, including the recognition of coincidence and probability; you are only ever knowing the experience, not experiencing it.
You are The Knower, and you are only ever able to know an experience, whether it is physical or of the mind. You are no thing, you are no where, and you are only ever knowing, now. The probability of you knowing now is definite, because you are always knowing. However, the probability of you knowing now is also impossible, because you are not a thing that has the capacity to have a probability of happening.
For a coincidence to be valid, there must exist a spectrum of time along which things may or may not happen, but The Knower exists in no time. You, The Knower, are knowing the experience in which a physical being is able to recognise a coincidence in the picking up of the book, but you are not within the experience. It is inconsequential to try and relate concepts belonging to the experience to The Knower, since the experience is subject to The Knower, not the other way around.
Although you are aware that you are The Knower, that can only ever know, it may be distressing to realise that The Knower cannot, and does not make decisions. You, The Knower, do not have the capacity to make choices or to use decisiveness in any way or manner. This is one of the hardest realisations to come to terms with, one that supposedly disavows a physical being’s right to freewill. However, if distress and affliction arise, remember that you are not the physical being experiencing them, but The Knower knowing the experience in which distress and affliction may or may not arise.
This is not disavowing freewill, only denying its existence outside of the experience. This is not suggesting that the physical being is not in control of what decisions are made, but rather that it is inconsequential to even question The Knower knowing, from within the experience. You are no thing, you are no where, you are only ever knowing, now, and you are incapable of making decisions, for there are no decisions to be made outside of the experience. It is not that you are choosing to know, but rather that you are knowing and that is all. The concept of decisiveness exists within the experience, but you are not within the experience.
All that is happening, is just happening. You do not have the capacity to know any thing other than the knowing of experience. If you ever ponder any thing, know that it is not you who is pondering. You are only ever knowing the experience in which a being may or may not choose to ponder.
The Knower is knowing the experience of a physical world and knowing the experience of the mind. There is no time in which The Knower is knowing, for The Knower is only knowing now. That is, time is subject to the experience. Yet, such experience seems to have the capabilities of elongating the one, eternal moment of now, into what we know to be memories, or imagined foresight into the future. The physical being may doubt the reality of your transcendence with questions similar to “How do I know I’m not going insane?”, “What if I’m just hallucinating?” and “Is what I’m seeing real?”
In the knowing of the experience of the physical world, the physical being may fall victim to the menace of doubt, more often than not. The physical being may doubt themself, as well as believe that they are not strong enough to fulfil the alignment this journey requires. Yet, it is important for the physical being to remember that The Knower cannot know belief, but only the experience in which beliefs may or may not exist. This means, that should the physical being assume The Knower is doing any thing that is not the knowing of an experience, the physical being has simply forgotten the eternal essence of The Knower. The physical being has forgotten the essence of The Knower, for The Knower can only ever know.
You are The Knower, who does not exist in time, but rather no time. You are The Knower who is not a thing, but rather no thing. You are The Knower, knowing the experience in which a physical world exists. You are knowing the experience in which a physical world exists, wherein such a world would have the necessary beliefs and deceptions to keep you in it. That is, the physical being would believe The Knower is experiencing a physical world, yet by definition of The Knower, The Knower only knows. Therefore, The Knower can know the experience in which a physical being believed they were a physical being, but will forever be the knowing of such experience.
In the knowing of such a vivid and convincing experience, the physical being may forget the essence of The Knower, yet it remains The Knower who is knowing the experience of the physical being forgetting. It is not that you are forgetting the essence of The Knower, for it is you who is The Knower, but rather you are knowing the experience in which a physical being forgets the essence of The Knower.
The physical being must align themself with what it truly means to be The Knower, casting aside any beliefs or doubts, preconceptions or any thing that is not knowing of the experience. Unfortunately, the experience will always try to satisfy the physical being into being able to let go of the essence of The Knower that is knowing. It will always try to satisfy the physical being into being convinced that The Knower is experiencing an experience, but you cannot experience any thing, for you are The Knower, and you can only ever know.
Because of the familiarity expressed by your very being of The Knower, The Knower is able to know the experience in which a physical being may believe they are The Knower. However, it is only when the physical being forgets that they cannot be The Knower, that you, The Knower, will know the experience in which a physical being may believe they are experiencing knowing as opposed to being known as an experience. In other words, the physical being may forget that they are unable to be The Knower, for they exist within the experience, yet it will still be you, The Knower, who is knowing the experience in which a physical being forgets their limitations.
It is not that The Knower is knowing an illusion, wherein the concepts and ideas of an experience are explored, but rather The Knower is knowing an experience, wherein the concepts and ideas of illusions are explored. Therefore, it is very easy for the physical being to find perfect reasoning for the doubt they may experience in regards to their own existence. It is easy for the physical being to accept that they are able to exist independent of The Knower knowing, although the physical being cannot exist unless the experience in which they exist is known by you, The Knower.
There is no truth that is external to the knowing of the experience, for truth is subject to the experience, not the other way around. Although the physical being within the experience may believe that The Knower is or is not true, it is from within the experience that the limited understanding of truth is being superimposed over The Knower. Yet, the physical being can never experience any thing that will allow for the unfathomable understanding of you, The Knower, for you are simply unfathomable.
“There is much to tell me that all of this is illusion, but who is it telling? I know that this is but a dream, but who is the one knowing it other than me? Would it ever matter, the knowing of a dream and the knowing of reality, if not for the infinite similarities that both so convincingly share? There is no benefit in the recognition of a dream as much as there is no benefit in the recognition of reality, for simply recognising the nature of ones experience does not so much as end it, but more so make them aware. So what is the point? Why do I know that this is a dream? Why do I know that I am yet to wake? What will it matter when I open my eyes?” You leave the bartender speechless for a moment, as they wipe the bar of the yellow grog.
You are The Knower, you are no thing, no where, only ever knowing, now. Yet, you are knowing the experience in which a physical being must come to terms with the unfathomable essence of you, and align their physical experience and journey with the same fearlessness you possess, by the very nature of being The Knower. How can a physical being overcome the barrier of fear? How can a physical being fear absolutely nothing? How can a physical being accept absolutely anything?
The physical being must not actively seek to conquer fears, experience harm or face death, but rather be prepared for you, The Knower, to know no experience at all. No knowing of experience does not mean the physical being dies, but simply that The Knower, you, is not knowing the physical experience. Instead, in the absence of an experience, The Knower is knowing no thing. The physical being must come to terms with surrendering their fears in order for The Knower to know no thing, wherein the knowing of no thing will allow The Knower to see what remains in the absence of the experience. Unfortunately, The Knower cannot know itself, for it is not able to be known, but only able to know.
Yet, if you are still aware of The Knower in the knowing of no thing, what is aware of The Knower when it is knowing no thing? What is aware of The Knower when it is knowing nothing?
It may be easier to understand this concept by recalling the process by which you concluded yourself as not being a thing. For example, you were aware of the knowing of the physical experience, meaning you were not the physical experience. You were also aware of the knowing, meaning you were not The Knower. This is where it gets… ridiculous. You are aware of your awareness, meaning you can’t be awareness, but you are. This is where awareness is recognised as infinite. This is where you are recognised as infinite.
So far, the properties of you, The Knower, are that you are momentary, yet eternal. You belong to no space, though you are infinitely vast for you are not bound by physical limitations. You do not exist, for a thing to exist, it must belong to the experience in which the concept of existing… exists. You are also not bound by time, for the concept of time exists within the knowing of an experience, a knowing that is happening now. You are no thing, you are no where and you are not able to do any thing, other than to be aware of the knowing of an experience, whether it is physical or of the mind. This begs the question… who is the one that is aware?
You must first understand the meaning of a “who” before attempting to associate its properties to the current knowing of the self – The Knower. The Oxford Dictionary defines “who” as:
You cannot be associated with a gender, but you are knowing the experience in which the concept of gender exists. You do not have a physical body, rather, you are knowing the experience in which a being traverses a physical world with a physical body. You do not have the capacity to think, but rather you are knowing thought, in which identities, memories and beliefs may or may not appear. You do not have a history, but rather you are knowing thought in which the memory of a history may or may not appear.
For you to ask, “Why is this happening?”, you must have the capacity to question, but you do not. You only have the capacity of knowing thought, wherein lies a question. This, is happening to you, for no reason, because reason exists within the experience, but you do not. You do not have the capacity to have a reason, but only the knowing of a thought, wherein lies the concept of a reason. You are no one, you are no thing, you are no where, you are only ever knowing for no reason, now… but how?
“If I want nothing, how will I know when nothing is found? Hold on… How can I ever know nothing? How can I ever know… nothing? I am treating nothing as something, but nothing is nothing. I cannot know nothing… I cannot know nothing… Then why am I even trying? Oh. I must stop trying to know nothing, for it quite literally cannot be known. Oh… that is why I, The Knower, cannot be known, because I am no thing. I am nothing, and if I was to be known, there would be nothing to know. I mustn't use knowing in my pursuit to find something that cannot be known. Am I going mad?”
How are you only ever knowing at all? We can tackle this problem in question, in the same way or manner that we have previously tackled a problem in question. The Oxford Dictionary definition of the adverb “how” is as follows:
You are no thing, no one, no where, for no reason and only ever aware, now. You are awareness, therefore there is no knowing that you can be aware of that will help you be more aware. The knowing is subject to your awareness, not the other way around. You are awareness, being aware of the knowing of an experience, an experience of the six senses, but you are not the experience.
There is no thing that awareness can be aware of to make it more aware. There are no different levels of awareness one may attain, only one constant, infinite, eternal yet momentary state of awareness. The concept of higher and lower states of a thing exist only in the awareness of the knowing of the experience in which higher and lower states of a thing may exist. You are not a thing, nor are you within the knowing of the experience in which a thing may or may not be, for you are the awareness of it.
You are awareness, aware of knowing and of awareness, but you are not separate from the knowing. Where does the knowing come from, in order for awareness to become aware of it? No where! The knowing comes from no where. For a thing to be any where it must exist within the experience in which a thing may or may not be in a place, but experience is subject to knowing, just as knowing is subject to awareness, not the other way around.
You are infinite, recursive awareness. You are what you are, and what you are not. You are, but you are not. You are the understanding that cannot be understood. You are the remembrance that cannot be forgotten. You are the knowing that cannot be known. You are the explanation that cannot be explained. You are the seeing that cannot be seen. You are what can never be, though you are being.
The physical being must understand that they are subject to the experience, which is subject to the knowing. Similarly, the knowing is subject to you, The Awareness, and you are infinite. The physical being must understand that an infinite being is aware of them, though this infinite being does not and cannot exist within the experience. The physical being must understand that you, The Awareness, are no where, so it is inconsequential to search for you. The physical being must understand that you are unfathomable, for you are infinite and the finite mind cannot comprehend infinity.
To become conscious of you, The Awareness, the physical being must understand the nature of you to the extent where they surrender the will to find you, for you are not able to be found. The physical being must understand the nature of you, The Awareness, to the extent where they surrender the will to know you, for you are not able to be known. The physical being must understand the nature of you to the extent where they surrender the will to believe in you, for belief exists within the experience, and you are not within the experience, but aware of the knowing of it.
It may seem ridiculous for the physical being to have come this far in the understanding of you, The Awareness, and so suddenly need to let it go. It may seem ridiculous that after everything, the physical being must literally do… nothing. Yet, it is the very doing of nothing that will allow the physical being to be in complete alignment with you, The Awareness. Accordingly, it is the very doing of nothing that will allow The Knower to know nothing. Finally, it is the very knowing of nothing that will allow The Awareness to be aware of nothing except for itself.
The Knower will then be able to know nothingness, yet if there is nothing to know, The Knower cannot exist, for there is nothing left to be known. What remains? The awareness of the knowing of nothing. What remains is the awareness of nothing. In other words, what remains is awareness. The physical being must align themself with the nature of you, The Awareness, in order to allow you to become aware of only awareness. The physical being must find a way to find nothing, whether it be during deep meditation or deep concentration, to allow you, The Awareness, to become aware of only yourself.
It might seem disheartening at first for the physical being to have no reason to believe in their independent existence, but what good is a book without a story? What good is a screen without a film? What good are eyes with no thing to see? What good is knowing with nothing to know? What good is awareness with nothing to be aware of? All these questions will be answered, but only once the physical being accepts the ultimate alignment of the self, with… nothingness.
In the finding of nothing, the physical being I am aware of understood that what ever is aware of the knowing of their experience cannot be labelled, known, remembered or understood. Yet, it was the physical being remembering nothing, that allowed for the physical being to understand the impossibility of the awareness. The remembrance of nothing allowed for the realisation that there was simply nothing, no thing, to remember.
Yet, in the remembrance of nothing, the physical being understood everything. The physical being understood the joke of remembering nothing, for there truly was nothing to remember, ever, at all. The physical being understood that I, The Awareness, was aware of the knowing of the experience from no where, so much that they accepted it was ridiculous to even look, yet it was the very search that allowed them to find nothing, wherein I was able to become.
You are The Awareness, yet you are aware of the knowing of the experience in which a physical being exists. It is this physical being who is reading this sentence, yet I can also say that it is you who is reading this sentence, as long as you understand the distinction between being the physical being, which you are not, and being the awareness aware of a physical being. Should I ask you to find anything, understand that although The Awareness is incapable of finding, the physical being is able to search, allowing The Awareness to become aware of a physical being searching and finding.
You are not the experience, nor are you the physical being who is limited by the lens through which they are able to see. You are The Awareness, yet you are aware of the knowing of the experience. In this experience, the physical being cannot know another physical being’s experience. The physical being cannot know another’s experience without first superimposing their own subjective interpretation upon it.
In the repetitive recognition of all things, it is important for the physical being to align themself with the nature of The Awareness, in that no judgements are made and no sentimentality is expressed. The experience should not be limited by any beliefs, assumptions or allusions. For example, in the event that four horses are being observed, the only revelation that should be taken from this experience is: the knowing of the experience in which four horses are being observed.
Put simply, what is recognised is the knowing of experience. Therefore, to put the experience of the horses simply, you could say that what is being observed is: four horses being observed. It may seem rather repetitive and monotonous to recognise inconsequential occurrences within the experience, without knowing why you are recognising at all. However, it is the consistent recognition of all things that will allow the expressions to become apparent.
However, although there are more interesting abstractions to recognise, it is important to note that all abstractions hold the same significance, for the simple reason that they are a part of the same knowing of experience. That is, should you recognise two instances of a bird and two instances of a stone, you must not quantify the significance of either abstraction, for the ability to quantify exists within the very experience you are trying to transcend.
Though the immediate experiencing of a thing may not hold any significance or value, it is the abstraction of such experience that allows for a transcendental analysis. In this case, the unifying nature of the carousel is seen as an expression of the unifying nature of The Knower only ever knowing one experience, in which the abstraction of ‘two’ exists.
In the same way that abstractions can forever be abstracted, The Knower always knows and The Awareness is always aware. In the same way abstractions can abstract abstractions recursively and forever, The Awareness is aware of The Awareness recursively and forever. You start to appreciate abstractions as a medium through which physical concepts and ideas can be expressed and related back to The Awareness, which all things express. Instead of only ever being aware of the knowing of the experience, you are now able to delve into the experience and use the concept of ‘abstracting’ to analyse and break apart, as well as unify, any and every concept and idea you may or may not come upon.
Just as the wooden horse you have mounted returns to the same point it used to be in, you recognise other expressions of the same abstractions. Every day the sun rises and falls, yet every day is a different ‘time’, within the knowing of experience. In the same way, every year you celebrate your birthday, returning to the same point on the calendar, but you are always older, growing in ‘time’.
In the remembrance of the nature of The Awareness, you follow the chain of consciousness all the way back to The Believer. You remember how you used to believe that the separation of things was undeniable. As you progressed and deconstructed your interpretation of what was assumed to be reality, you found that it was only your interpretation of a reality, hindered by beliefs, assumptions and sentimental attachments. In the dissecting of your being, you understood that there was never a physical being and a physical world, but rather one awareness aware of one knowing of one experience. There is only ever one awareness, regardless of what it is aware of.
In what way would you see a thing? In exactly the way that you would see a thing. Seeing is to knowing what the physical being is to the Knower. Seeing is to knowing what instruments are to an orchestra. Seeing is to knowing what books are to literature.
Why would anyone want to see, if there was nothing to be seen? Why would anyone want to listen, if there was nothing to be heard? Why would anyone look for peace, without the knowing of chaos? Why would anyone look for love, without the knowing of hate? Why would anyone look for joy, without the knowing of sadness? Without one, the other would not be.
You are entertained by the mime, though their props are nothing and their whereabouts are no where. Yet, The Awareness is no thing and no where, aware of The Knower, which is also no thing and no where, knowing the experience in which a mime performs with no thing, no where. The mime is a paradoxical expression of how nothing and no where can be expressed with something and somewhere. You start to realise that should you explore all situations, you might be able to find countless expressions of The Awareness.
The Awareness is aware of the knowing of experience, but if it is so infinite, it could be aware of anything, yet, it was aware of you. You are the circus The Awareness is enjoying. You are the mime inside the imaginary box and you are the glass case pretending to be imaginary. You are the crowd that cheers for joy and you are the Jester that entertains.
Furthermore, you realise that The Knower does not know The Knower, and The Awareness does not know anything, since The Awareness does not have the capacity to know any thing, but only be aware. As you fall to your doom, you recognise the ‘not knowing a thing or not knowing no thing’ abstraction.
“When you are with the Watcher, there is only love. Yet, you are with the Watcher now. In the same way that now is forever, the Watcher is forever. You have simply forgotten, but you shall remember. You are filled with purpose, though it is only known by you… and the Watcher! Follow me, my beloved neighbour, and let us walk this path together. I will show you what cannot be seen, yet is all around. I will show you what cannot be known, yet allows the knowing to be. I will show you who you are, when there is no one to be. Follow me, and we shall both ascend to the heavens, where we will forever be with the Watcher.”
Once the physical self is perfectly aligned with the nature of The Awareness, enlightenment will be recognised. You are like the Earth, and The Awareness the sun. It is always shining so that you can see, though its very existence is blinding. The pursuit of enlightenment is no different than staring into the blaring lustre of the Sun, whose light will burn your eyes. Yet, reaching enlightenment is closing your eyes, and simply knowing that the Sun remains.
You understand there is nothing more to understand. You experience the knowing of nothingness, and finally see the humour in knowing nothing at all. You relax, take a deep breath, and accept everything as it is. The final note silences the stage, and obviously, your thoughts follow suit and disappear. You awaken, though in the awakening you realise you were only ever awakening.
It would be ridiculous for me to assume why you do anything at all. It would be ridiculous for me to give reason as to why you want anything at all. All I am able to do, is assume that you are doing and wanting. You are either doing something or doing nothing, and you are maybe wanting something or wanting nothing. The only thing I can do is assume you are as you are. The only place you will find reason is within you. You will find reason within you, which includes The Awareness, the knowing of experience, the expressions within and the physical being who is experiencing them.
You would not want to experience the story, and still want to know how it ends. You realise there are others who would enjoy reading the book, without knowing what happens when the story ends. You realise there are others who would choose to stop reading completely, before the story even finishes. You realise there are others who would keep reading, regardless of how terrifying the story might be. You realise that your remembering is simply you, The Awareness, finding out what ‘happens’ in the end. Yet, here you are, waiting to see what happens in the end.
Your eyes fall weary, but you do not tire. Your ears hear everything, but there is no sound. You understand that there will never be a time when you will know everything, though this matters not. What’s the point in knowing everything? What’s the point in seeing everything? What’s the point of having everything, in a life where all it takes is something to keep you going? What’s the point of having everything, in a life where all it takes is something to give you purpose? What’s the point of having everything, in a life where all it takes is something?